The Fallen Reverend Van Tastik: An ode to a unique artist + Live in Knokke!

The Fallen Reverend Van Tastik:
An ode to a unique artist.

It was June of the year 2023. I had followed Pete Bernhard from The Black Flamingo to Tequila Tattoos, and had been anxiously awaiting the show he was going to do with his band at De Casino. Iโ€™ve written at length about that show, but there was a side character of sorts that sorely (and finally) deserves his spotlight. I am talking of course about language specialist, Fallen Reverend and artist extraordinaire: the dishonourable Van Tastik!

We met at the merch-table where he was hocking the wares of opener The Bones of J.R. Jones. Something about me sounding French in my English accent got us talking and made me totally miss the music. A rarity for me to get this distracted when there’s live music THAT good going on. But I am intrigued by this Italian American, who moved to France and has now ended up in Utrecht. I called him an honorary Belgian for his language skills (add a bit of German to the above mix) ,and we start a multilingual conversation about the lighter things in life, such as Belgian politics, rednecks, religion, faith and anarchy. (I love discussing topics most people shy away from, so I feel like I’ve met a soulmate.)

Turns out Van is also a musician in his own right and dear (unholy) god is it good. I had a quick listen outside before the Devilish Three came out after their show, and I was immediately hooked on that voice. I’ll let him describe himself in his own words though:

Welcome to The Church of the Fallen Reverend VAN TASTIK where I tell people to โ€œShut up and Danceโ€. Music is meant to bring us together, this I know!
Seriously people, How good is this. ALSO: resonator = love!

Little did I know he was about to release his full album ‘The Church of the Fallen Reverend’ later that year. The day it got out I immediately devoured it front to back. One song caught my ear most and it had an enormous effect on me.

I laughed and cried at the same time. It was healing and hurting. It made me whole and strengthened my resolve. Just LISTEN to this and try not to fall to pieces.

It also got my creative juices flowing again and I started back up with a rounding the edges drawing and made a ‘formal’ version just a few weeks ago.

I absolutely love when art inspires art and music will always be my favourite art form to start from.

So, as you can see, this is again a story about synchronicity of chance encounters in the wake of the trilogy (thrillogy?) of things that was 2023. It would be followed by even more interweaving threads in the web of bands and artists that I’d discover in the months after. Right now for instance, Van Tastik is on tour in the States with Lightning Luke and King Strang of The Bridge City Sinners, which I also wrote a gushing review about.

The Fallen Reverend Van Tastik:
Live at Tracks & Tr@vellers club – Knokke Heist November 11th 2023

Six months after meeting the Fallen Reverend, it was finally time to see him perform. ROADTRIP TIME! Off to Knokke I went with my music bestie Jo, who’d been informed about the amazing artist I’d discovered in real time, as we do. This is probably the furthest I’ve gone for a show that wasn’t in another country, but oh my lord, was it worth it! And then some.

Setting the scene of the night: I had no idea Knokke had such a perfect location for music! The Tracks & Tr@vellers blues cafรฉ is really a treat for a music lover. We’ve only just sat down when Van comes over, shouts ‘Crane!’ and gives me a big bear hug. Seeing his one man band set up on stage is a good omen for what we’re about to experience!
‘Goeienavond, my name is Van Tastik en ik kom uit Virginia. Here’s taste of the sound where I am from in Appalachia.’

It was such a good performance that I sat there completely mesmerised and barely made any notes aside from the songs he played, so I am going to let the videos speak for themselves.

A very different but special rendition of my most favourite song Fire! After which he even got the sadly not so attentive audience (a lot of drinking going on) to join into a sing-along with his cover of John The Revellator.

That voice, that guitar playing, that dexterity in also adding in the drums. And most of all, the purple soul that is Van Tastik who BREATHES his love of music off of the stage into the oxygen deprived world. It was an amazing night I will not soon forget and hope to experience again this year in a Black Flamingo near me!

As a cherry on top of the synchronicitous events that lead to this night, we take this picture under a Jack Daniels Old nยฐ 7 sign, that links back to that Devil Makes Three banger: Old number 7. We have gone full circle now for 2023. It all started with Pete Bernhard, went on an eleven month WILD musical ride with several interlinked turns, to end up here in Knokke-le-Zoute of all places, for the last show of my year in music.

As of last week this disc has been on repeat in my oldtimer car that can only take cd’s. It’s probably the only recent hard copy record I have. All thanks to Jo who bought it for me. See me ride out of the sunset, on another musical ride through 2024!

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Shawn James |Part 1: Live @ De Casino, Sint-Niklaas

Shawn James | Tuesday, February 20th 2024, Live @ De Casino, Sint-Niklaas (Part 1 of 2)

It is well past midnight and I just got home. Adrenaline alone is going to fuel this story of yet another incredible evening in musicโ€™s embrace. When you write down โ€˜How can this year get any better than this?โ€™ when itโ€™s not even Spring yet, you know it was a fucking treat. (Especially knowing what I know of summer highlights yet to come! Clyde & The Milltailers, Bridge City Sinners, Whiskeydick & James Hunnicutt. Probably forgetting a bunch. But anyway, back to tonight!)

For synchronicityโ€™s sake, I got invited to see Shawn James by two completely unrelated people at the same time, give or take a couple of minutes. Thereโ€™s a whole other story I could tell about just how crazy coincidental it all is, and how it ties into all the synchronicity of threes in 2023, but it would take me too far off course. I NEED to tell you about what I got to experience tonight. Right now. This fucking instant.

Set the stage. 

A piano. 
A long haired man in a hat. 
A voice that reaches inside and touches your soul from the first note on. 

I rather enthusiastically go โ€˜WAAAHAAAHAAAHAAJAAAAโ€™ into Joโ€™s ear (Sorry not sorry). The room goes completely silent and a huge smile is plastered on my face. It hath begun. I have fallen in love. Instantly. Wholeheartedly. Closing my eyes and becoming one with the sweet sweet music.

  • Shawn James @ De Casino| Foto: Sven Dullaert โ€“ Feb 20th 2024
  • Shawn James @ De Casino| Foto: Sven Dullaert โ€“ Feb 20th 2024
  • Shawn James @ De Casino| Foto: Sven Dullaert โ€“ Feb 20th 2024
  • Shawn James @ De Casino| Foto: Sven Dullaert โ€“ Feb 20th 2024
  • Shawn James @ De Casino| Foto: Sven Dullaert โ€“ Feb 20th 2024

After a breathtaking and intimate moment between a man and his piano, Shawn is joined on stage by a fiddler, drummer and bassist and trades in his keys for an acoustic guitar. It is on!

  • Shawn James @ De Casino| Foto: Sven Dullaert โ€“ Feb 20th 2024
  • Shawn James @ De Casino| Foto: Sven Dullaert โ€“ Feb 20th 2024

Firstly, I have to tell you about the amazing (Ha, I said it again. I told him yesterday 20 times how amazingly amazing this amazing instrument was. Thereโ€™s no better word for it though, he agreed.) arch top bass. What a beautiful instrument! Look at it SHINE:

  • Shawn James @ De Casino| Foto: Sven Dullaert โ€“ Feb 20th 2024
  • Shawn James @ De Casino| Foto: Sven Dullaert โ€“ Feb 20th 2024
  • Shawn James @ De Casino| Foto: Sven Dullaert โ€“ Feb 20th 2024

Aside from that, would you believe the crazy sounds coming from โ€˜Rageโ€™ Sageโ€™s fiddling? The energy that man exudes is completely enchanting from the moments he gets on stage.

In his own words: The most metal fiddle player you know. If 2023 was the year of the banjo, 2024 is sure to turn out to be the year of the fiddle! (Ainโ€™t that right, mister Lighting Luke!)

Especially when the instrument is played with such melancholy and pure heart. In true Julie fashion, it makes several appearances in the notes:

  • Have I mentioned here how much I ADORE the violin? 
  • Man oh man (or mannekes for the Flemish people) that VIOLIN!
  • THAT VIOLIN!
  • Instant goosebumps, that violin. 
  • Fiddle Baby!
  • Guitar & Fiddle ๐Ÿ’œ
  • Go Violinist GOOOOOOOO!

Yes Shawn, you were singing? Love will find a way? Oh yeah baby, all the love from the audience is directed at the stage. I write down โ€˜FUCK FUCK FUCK, what a voice, what a band, what a sound.โ€™ And weโ€™re just about at song two. We still have an hour and a half of this rollercoaster of bewilderment ahead.

This voice, it is all around.
I feel it in my bones.
My gut.
My heart.
I am rejoicing in the vocals and bathing in the music.

There arenโ€™t enough adjectives in the world to describe the range Shawn has, it is beyond incredible. From gut wrenching to near growling in an instant. This man and his band are unmissable, I would follow them to the ends of the world just to experience this again. 

Ear shattering chills to the bone. I use the term goosebumps so much it almost starts to lose its power. Almost. This performance brings highlight after highlight. From acoustic to borderline metal as fuck, this band and this man with that astonishing voice can do it all to near perfection. Few words can describe this musical frenzy weโ€™ve found here in the city of Sint-Niklaas.

Some more nonsense that should tell you all about what it evoked (people familiar with my writing know this only comes out when I lose all other words for what is happening.):

  • Wahaaahooo!
  • Ohohohog
  • Hohohohoooo.
  • Whaaaatwhaaaatwhaaat.
  • Love! Love! Love!

If my smile could get any wider, I would become The Joker. Seriously, this show is nearly unrivalled and I have gotten to experience so much beauty in such a short time, that alone should tell you something. I havenโ€™t often seen such a completely captivated audience, especially in larger venues. 

And who should we run into after the show but beard men Rob & Juice who were at The Black Flamingo for Whiskeydick/James Hunnicutt where I also met Ann & David? YES!

De Casino, I love you! (And your Kerel Saison beer, YUM!)
You bet it was a badass Tuesday, Shawn, the badassessed of the badass. We want more and we get more. Encore after encore after encore. We eat it up. The acoustic guitar has been switched for an electric and then another gorgeous arch top. Could this night get any better? Youโ€™d think it couldnโ€™t, but it incrementally got better, better and best. 

PS: Honourable mention to the fantastic drummer from Dublin who more than kept up with the rhythmic variations in the set. Much love!
PPS: Actual pictures taken by a serious photographer incoming, but I just could NOT wait to throw this online!


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Luna en de Maanstenen – Deel 2 | Cafee Cabron, Antwerpen

Deel 2: Luna en de Maanstenen | Cafee Cabron, Antwerpen, 11 februari 2024

Deel 1: The Black Flamingo, Nijlen โ€“ 29 juli 2023

Anderhalve maand in het nieuwe jaar en toch alweer acht optredens achter de kiezen. (En nog veel meer op de planning.) Een dag eerder nog in The Black Flamingo voor Rabid Jack en Ellis Mane. (Hierover later meer, ooit ofzo.) Op een zalige zondag vliegen een Zwarte Flamingo en een Kraanvogel richting โ€˜t Stad.

Een kraanvogel, Flamingo & Berang de nog te besprekene artiest

Wie komen ze daar tegen? DE Berang, muzikant die twee weken voor De Maanstenen in de Flamingo speelde met Freddie Webber. (Jaja, ook dat komt ooit nog. OOIT!) Hij die gisteren ook meegenoot van Jack & Ellis in diezelfde Flamingo. (En medemuzikant is op de plaat van Ellis Mane die binnenkort van de persen rolt.) En die ook luistert als Jo zegt: KOMT DAT ZIEN. As everyone should, zoals we ondertussen weten.

Maar liefst 28 weken na datum en nog geen woord gerept over het geweldige optreden uit juli. Schande! Dan mag het geheugen al eens worden opgefrist. Alsof dat nog nodig was eigenlijk, na hun passage in The Black Flamingo. Maar goed, elk excuus is goed voor een portie Luna en de Maanstenen.ย 

Luna en De Maanstenen - Foto credit Briek Verdoodt
Luna en De Maanstenen – Foto credit Briek Verdoodt

Verrassing, oh verrassing, Julie draait alweer op een slaaptekort van al enkele weken. Dat doseren heb ik dus nog altijd niet geleerd. Anderzijds weet ik dat ik er soms over moet gaan, om boenk op energiepeil 100 te belanden, dus ik neem het zekere voor het onzekere en sleep mij doorheen de dag en richting Nijlen, alwaar ik dankbaar kan meeliften met Flaminโ€™Jo.

Het zal u ook dubbel niet verbazen dat ik ondertussen ook weer het quota aan gsm-opslag had bereikt en dus eerst nog grondig plaats moet maken op mijn telefoon.

Eens aangekomen in het geweldige Caffee Cabron zijn we meteen gewonnen voor de fijne vintage look van bruin cafรฉ met sterke bierkaart, Tiffany lampjes tegen oude stenen muren en rode fluwelen gordijnen waarvoor de Maanstenen zullen schitteren. 

Luna en De Maanstenen - Foto credit Briek Verdoodt
Luna en De Maanstenen – Foto credit Briek Verdoodt

Luna treedt aan met een waanzinnig coole prinsessenjurk en gooit haar bas over de schouder. De Maanstenen beginnen met een knaller van een nieuw nummer, met een heerlijk hevige gitarist Jitse op zang. Het nieuwe nummer klinkt nog net iets ruiger dan we gewoon zijn en de toon is meteen gezet. Het kot moet hier kapot! Er volgen nog nieuwe nummers, waaronder eentje met kraaien en onderstaande over de betweterige luide man die zo nodig zijn mening moest delen met Luna.ย 

Wat een feest! Zitten heb ik de laatste tijd al genoeg gedaan, dus vandaag haal ik mijn beste (HAHA) dansmoves nog eens van onder het stof. Dansen, zweten, zweten en dansen. En ook nog een beetje zweten. Het is daar hรฉรฉt in de Cabron, letterlijk zowel als figuurlijk. Net zoals in de Flamingo spelen ze overigens de akoestische & punkversie van mijn lijflied Gewoon Gewoon.

Gewoon, omdat ze dat kunnen. Opnieuw sta ik versteld van het ongelooflijke bereik van Lunaโ€™s stem. Parker beukt lekker op zijn drum en ook Jitse ramt zijn er snaren bijna van af. Wat een afsluiter van een topweekend! Ondanks de korte nacht sta ik maandag op, bomvol nieuwe energie, en stuiter ik enthousiast de dag door. Muziek zal mij altijd blijven opladen.

Ook benieuwd: Zak op 27 april af naar de Costa!


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Luna en de Maanstenen – Deel 1 |The Black Flamingo, Nijlen

Deel 1: Luna en De Maanstenen | The Black Flamingo, Nijlen – 29 juli 2023

Afgelopen zomer stond alles in het teken van de vogels. (Nu ook nog, maar toen nog net iets meer.) Ik begin mijn notities hier dan ook met de profetische zwaluw die langs rakelings langs de auto scheert bij het inrijden van de yellow sand road. Me First and the Gimme Gimmes knallen van I believe I can fly uit de speakers, terwijl ik de auto parkeer. 24 u geleden dans ik nog de ziel uit mijn lijf bij hun Belgische tegenhanger, The All Star Wedding Band. 48 uur geleden zwalpen mijn dansbenen nog vrolijk door de Mechelse Kruidtuin op de tonen van Funeral Dress en de punk dj die de avond daar afsloot.ย  Het is weer synchroniciteit al wat de klok slaat.

Deze twee optredens liet me echter lichtjes (ZEER) uitgeput en met een resem spieren die prettig (PIJNLIJK) nazinderden. De week erna zou Brakrock de fantastische Joey Henri opvolgen dus moest ik een beetje doseren. (HAHA) Aldus beloofde ik plechtig van voor een keer niet gelijk een gek in het rond te dansen. Moeilijk, moeilijk, moeilijk. Gelukkig was er daar Jo die speciaal voor mij een relax had gereserveerd, meteen mijn ego รฉn rug in een keer gestreeld!ย 

Snel wat ruimte maken op mijn gsm (afgeladen vol na een hele lente en halve zomer vol muzikaal hoogtepunt na muzikaal hoogtepunt), want ja ik weet nu al dat ik hierover ga schrijven. (Hoewel ik er totaal geen tijd voor heb en ik al hopeloos achter loop, getuige dezeย vertraging van 6.5 maanden.)

Luna noemde haar eigen verzonnen genre bubblegum punk (al zou kleinkunst-punk ook een treffende benaming zijn) en Jo had me al verteld dat de paarsheid er van af droop. Kan dat dan nog mislopen? Ik denk het niet. (Spoiler alert: it fucking didnโ€™t.)

De energie die van Luna afstraalt en de smack talk die ze verkoopt tegen en over haar maanstenen is verfrissend. De basdrum zindert door de zetel en doet ZO deugd aan mijn pijnlijke rug.

De nummers knallen Nederlandstalig uit de boxen. De humor en zelfspot van de teksten doen me heel sterk denken aan Nele Needs a Holiday, which is always a great thing.

Wat een topstem heeft Luna trouwens, van lieflijk zacht naar lekker ruig zonder verpinken. En een out of this world outfit in haar paarse zijden jurkje met Duvelsokken piepend vanuit haar Doc Martins. Ahja, en de maanstenen Jitse en Parker waren ook wel tof. (Kidding gasten, jullie waren beestig goed!)

Eerlijk is eerlijk, Luna is wel mijn rolmodel. De band verpersoonlijkt overigens wat ik altijd al met mijn droomband zou willen doen. De attitude, de sound en verhalende teksten, YES, meer van dat. En dat zal ik krijgen, een dikke 6 maanden later! Wordt vervolgd.

Voor ik vertrek mag alter ego Polexia nog haar allereerste handtekening plaatsen op Will de metal krokodil. Bij mijn vertrek onder een prachtige sterrenhemel hoor ik vanaf de overkant van de polders Zap Mama zingen. A perfect end to a great night.


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Joey Henryโ€˜s Dirty Sunshine Club | Part 2: Live @ The Black Flamingo, Nijlen

Authorโ€™s note: Iโ€™m mostly going to let the videos speak for themselves this time. (Mostly.) Enjoy.

Joey Henryโ€˜s Dirty Sunshine Club | Saturday, August 12th 2023 โ€“ The Black Flamingo, Nijlen

Somewhere in the lush green fields of Nijlen lies the yellow sand road leading to The Black Flamingo. This ainโ€™t Kansas anymore, but a welcome home away from home to puddle photographer & poet Joey Henry. Itโ€™s been little over a week since he passed through Heist-op-den-Berg and Iโ€™m frankly still reeling. I invited some more Purple people to enjoy the show with me and am greeted by Juice & Rob who got an honourable mention after the WhiskeyDick/Hunnicutt trifecta. 

One stroke of the strings, I close my eyes and itโ€™s just me and the music. The first notes hit home like nothing else. The approving murmurings reveal weโ€™re in group therapy and there’s still people  alongside me to take in the musical medicine. The notes draw the audience in like a virtuous vortex, (or shall I compare it to a Kansas hurricane) and the resulting hushed silence is a nice backdrop to the sound. I knew what to expect and the sound still baffles me.I open my eyes for a second to see some mouths dropping in awe around me. 

Joey Henry has a voice like a cathedral and might not even need the microphone to emphasise his songs, judging by how far away he sings from the thing. His voice goes from the deepest bass up so many registers like itโ€™s nothing. Heโ€™s a story teller, in true Americana fashion, and every song could be its own little movie. The way he loses himself in his songs is mesmerising to watch. Closing his eyes and chasing the notes across the neck of the beautiful banjo that has seen some miles, judging from the patina on top. He plays that thing like itโ€™s an electrical guitar, pounding the strings and bending to his amp to use the feedback as an additional layer to the music. At some point it sounds like thereโ€™s a theremin mixed into it all.ย 

After a pretty wrecking start of summer and first week of August, all my joints hurt to the high heavens.The sound and vibrations of the music are so soothing however that the musical medicine doesnโ€™t just heal my soul but my body as well. Joey breaks out the guitar and asks if there are any requests. Thanks to Juice, Henry goes back to his banjo, rolls up his sleeves and tears into an immensely captivating rendition of Kites. Tears, I love youโ€™s and hugs all around after the song ends. What an experience, being here on this glorious night and letting it all wash over me. 

As if all that beauty hadnโ€™t been enough, Joey invites local band Bracaโ€™s Seppe and his accordion to the stage.

You might not believe me after seeing that video but they simply conferred two minutes about the chords and then this happened.

They lean into it and the voice and depth of these songs sear into the depths of the soul. Thereโ€™s a whispered reverence as the set draws to a close with Everything kills us all on the ukulele. 

As if all of these weren’t magical enough, after a well deserved break to catch our breaths, (Joey from singing his heart out, the audience from staring breathlessly at the stage.) us lucky few move to the fire pit in the back garden.

A halfmoon and clear and starry sky shines on the encores and an audience unabashedly relishing every last note that gets thrown our way. The fire crisping a happy crescendo to a night well spent.


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Joey Henryโ€˜s Dirty Sunshine Club | Part 1: Live @ Den Oude Ketel

The start of the new year, in the calm before the storm of a whole series of new events. Perfect time to reminisce about 2023 and catch up on some stories I kept up my sleeve. I wrote the following somewhere in September:

It starts off as another magical walk, reminiscing on the beautiful musical rainbows. I have yet to regale you with the tale of meeting the beautiful ultra-purple person that is Joey Henry, whom I met somewhere at the start of August. I havenโ€™t had the time to find the right words to describe the two nights I spent with him and his music.

Letโ€™s just say that aside from being an immensely talented musician, heโ€™s also a phenomenal photographer. I snagged one of his prints, Kansas rainbow included, at the first of his shows I saw at Den Oude Ketel. (Yes, the very same spot where I saw that other impossible rainbow months earlier, after that magical James Hunnicutt set.)

Kansas Rainbow by Joey Henry

Today is the day I finally try and demystify the wonderful moments of musical medicine I got to experience at the start of August. It started out with a good bad decision on account of a bad case of FOMO. Joey Henryโ€˜s Dirty Sunshine Club was to hit the stage at The Black Flamingo on August 12th and Jo had hinted to me it was going to be legendary.

Joey Henry @ Den Oude Ketel | Photo : Bakkie Photography โ€“ August 3rd 2023

I took note and saw he was also going to play Den Oude Ketel in Heist-op-den-Berg as well and I was faced with a terrible conundrum. Was I going to keel over if I added another day of music to the Brakrock weekend that would follow? The answer turned out to be yes, in hindsight, but luckily I managed to stay on my feet until after every bit of music had transpired.ย 

Joey Henryโ€˜s Dirty Sunshine Club | Thursday, August 3rd 2023 โ€“ Den Oude Ketel, Heist Op Den Berg

So, following my FOMO, I ventured out but promised myself I was just going to enjoy the show and leave lovely Polexia at home. It was no use, the music hadnโ€™t even started yet and she came out to play! Had a nice talk with Joey (quote: โ€˜Jo and the Black Flamingo peeps are like family.โ€™), ‘WhiskeyDick drummer’ Raf and then spotted Bakkie Photography. I knew then I was going to write about it anyway, so I went ahead and asked for a pre-show selfie this time. (Thinking I wouldnโ€™t be tempted to hang out too long after the show. WRONG.)

True to my brand, I start my notes with three mentions of my top favourite instrument of 2023, the banjo!

  • Banjoolooooo
  • Special banjo with distortionย 
  • Remind me to ask him about the special banjo

Needless to say, I was already pretty excited and planted my ass smack dab in front of the stage. I managed to barely see any of the performance because I had my eyes closed from sheer delight, as can be observed in the following excerpt.ย (I also forgot to ask about the special banjo…)

Iโ€™m afraid I also wasnโ€™t very diligent in my note taking. Suffice it to say the man is a musical and visual poet! His photos are like still music videos for his tunes. It all blends beautifully together. His robust yet delicate voice is a delight on this warm summer night. When he starts up the gospel tune called โ€˜We all fuck upโ€™, I wrote down I found my new theme song.ย 

Joey Henry @ Den Oude Ketel | Photo : Bakkie Photography โ€“ August 3rd 2023

I smile a thank you to the people shushing some loud talkers, because how can you not shut the fuck up when these melodies float into the world. And believe me, I know how hard shutting the fuck up is. But no words from me at this point. Joey mentions heโ€™s having too much fun on the banjo to switch to the guitar and really, I ainโ€™t complaining here!ย 

Joey Henry @ Den Oude Ketel | Photo : Bakkie Photography โ€“ August 3rd 2023

He tells us to invite our ghosts here, before staring into the beautiful ballad I dream of horses, which leaves me crying for the second time centre stage at Den Oude Ketel. His lyrics are beautiful and speak to the imagination. I managed to write down a few snippets as I heard them.ย 

  • Sleep baby, sleep, sing in the morning if that’s what you need from me.
  • Building a house for your heart and digging a basement in case you meet a human tornado.
  • She is like a seatbelt for my soul.

Very honourable mention to his amazing song about adventurous aviator Amelia Earhart.

Joey explains he is writing without worrying about genres, writing as a medicine for his people, to get the musical medicine back from his audience. He calls his shows group therapy and he is not wrong. I leave the show elated and so so happy I made the good bad decision of following the fear of missing out. I end my notes with another very excited โ€˜Banjooloooooโ€™ and a happy feeling to have more Joey Henryโ€™s Dirty Sunshine Club ahead of me that month.

Huge thanks to Bakkie for another series of wonderful pictures!ย 


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The Bridge City Sinners – Trefpunt Ghent

September 22nd had been excitedly marked in my calendar since April, when I saw Clyde McGee open for Pete Bernhard. As with Pete, I knew the band by music, but not the individual members, so I only found out Clyde was one of The Bridge City Sinners on that fateful day in Hulshout. He told me about the Sinnersโ€™ European tour in September and October and I was BEYOND stoked to see a Belgian date. I was even more thrilled to be able to share this experience with my newfound friends Iโ€™d acquired through the synchronicity of music since his solo performance.ย 

I was planning on taking an entire day to get ready, dolled up and taking my sweet time going to Ghent. Afterwards driving on to the Belgian coast for a much needed holiday. Alas, fate decided otherwise as an unforeseen and also unmissable event was planned on the same day. My stress level was through the roof in the weeks and days beforehand trying to get my head around a literal (no, really!) rollercoaster of a day into a night where I had to drive myself to a city I didnโ€™t know very well. Let me tell ya, all that stress was so fucking unfounded, when I think back on it now it is almost amusing. 

The day of started earlier than usual and I faced fears I had talked myself into over the years. I used to be brave and fearless, but over the last years depression and battle with neurodivergence had made me small. Small and afraid of EVERYTHING. Doubting I could do ANYTHING. The day was a therapy group outing to an amusement park and to say I was DREADING all of it would be the understatement of the century. Luckily, therapy is teaching me how to face my fears head on. So I did. In line for the first roller coaster, I was hopping from one leg to another, thoughts racing this way and that. I eventually decided to just get over it and DO it, and got on the fucking roller coaster. It was scary at first, but then it was EXHILARATING! After that, I still felt a little trepidation getting on a new coaster, but by the end of the day I was unstoppable. I had faced my fears and WON, telling my brain to shut the fuck up and it actually shutting the fuck up. I had an AMAZING day and was living on adrenaline alone. 

In getting home, the adrenaline unfortunately wore off and I was tired from all the mental and physical gymnastics of the day. So getting ready for the show felt like I was moving in slow motion while getting anxious again for the drive through traffic and rain, on a road I was not familiar with, in a time frame that would mean I would almost definitely miss the opener. I was sad but resigned to the fact that I wouldnโ€™t get the full experience of this night I had been looking forward to for almost 6 months. 

I managed to get my ass on the road eventually and powered through those fears to eventually arrive at my destination. In a daze, I hurriedly speed walked from my parking spot on the outskirts of Ghent to the venue, when I abruptly stopped in my tracks in awe of this quote on the building. Good thing I halted, because in my haste I had almost run past where I actually needed to be and made myself even later.

First I feel I need to emphasise what an AMAZING place Trefpunt is. As if I wasnโ€™t sweaty enough already from the walk there, the indian-summer heat inside was enough to almost melt me away. So yeah, it was sweaty as fuck, punk as fuck but filled to the brim with a merry band of misfits that oozed Purple vibes. It felt like coming home to a room full of strangers. And then I spotted my musical friends I made this year and the last ounce of stress and self-doubt fell off of my sweaty shoulders. I HAD MADE IT!

I even made it in time for the opener Tuesday Violence and HOLY HELL I am so glad I did. A three headed band started during lockdown. You have Daveney, originally from the Netherlands but emigrated here 9 years ago, on drums & vocals. Bruxelloise Crystal is on organ (!) and vocals and Niels from Ghent is on guitar. The sound they produce together is almost indescribable. I wrote it up as incredible punk & roll but they describe it as primitive garage punk. Call it what you will, I will just refer to their sound as extraordinarily FANTASTIC. Crystal & Deveneyโ€™s voices were reminiscent of some of my favourite female punkers, like Brody Dalle & the ladies from Maid of Ace. The energy of their set was exhilarating and set the pace for the rest of the night. 

Crystal, Deveney and Niels + yours truly

Aside from being fired up on stage, they were super nice and kind off stage. I got to talking to Deveney & Crystal who told me all about how they started and the amazing backstory on that beautiful organ she was playing on stage. My reference to Maid of Ace (another experience I still have to write about) led to vague plans for a possible ALL FEMALE (and Niels) double bill of both Tuesday Violence & the Maids at the Black Flamingo! (Fingers crossed we can set this up for 2024.) 

In the meantime: check out Tuesday Violence newly released album!

Talking to these ladies was such intriguing fun, we almost missed the start of The Bridge City Sinners set! Time to run back in and claim a place for a piece of musical history Ghent will not soon forget. My lackadaisical approach to picture/video taking should tell you how good of a night it really was. These are meant as mere mementos more than actual good visual and/or auditory representation.

My notes start off with a simple OMG. Because Oh My unholy GOD, if I thought I already adored The Bridge City Sinners on record, itโ€™s a WHOLE other thing seeing them live. I am staring at that stage in ABSOLUTE LOVE and AWE of the glorious mayhem of strings and vocals. The music feels so much more layered while seeing it live, because you can pick apart all the scrumptious little details. I made a video that gives only a vague idea about how epic of a performance it was. (Trust me, it does the evening NO justice at all, but it may give you a slight idea as to what you’ve missed.)

There is just so so much fucking talent on that ONE tiny stage! They all sing (and very well I might add), they all play multiple instruments which they casually switch during the set, like itโ€™s nothing. From banjos to fiddles, from guitars to dobros; topped with a standing bass and a side of madness. 

Aside from the Sinners, they all have several other bands and solo projects going on. Thatโ€™s the thing about good music. Itโ€™s not just a series of notes and words reiterated on a stage. Good musicians and bands LIVE for their music. They breathe the music like it is their oxygen, and every night they play, they exchange that life force with their audience. Only to get recharged night after night and in the meantime honing their skills and getting more extraordinary with every gig.

This is what is happening here, itโ€™s a band of exceptionally talented and dedicated musicians who LOVE what they do and the people they do it with. Every one of them gets their chance to shine on stage, with the wonderful Libby as a master of ceremonies directing her friends to their own spotlight. My hazy notes tell me I was again very much impressed by Clydeโ€™s voice and taken aback when he started grunting during one song. The banjolos (not one BUT AT LEAST TWO) were mentioned as well. I was also very impressed by Lightinโ€™ Luke and his fiddlework and something else he was doing because I wrote down โ€˜The fuck is he playing? Woap wap?โ€™. Alas, I have no clue what I am referencing here, but all of these weird obscure scribblings just prove it was such a good show, I lost all sense of making sense. And thatโ€™s the way I like it.

My notes do however mention my admiration of Joey Steel, who acts as the tour manager for The Sinnersโ€™ European Vacation. Heโ€™s running around before, during and after the gig, setting everything up so that the band can just focus on doing what they do best. Meanwhile, he still makes the time to greet me with a big hug, in between all his hauling around and setting up. Joey Steel, hardest working man in showbiz and still so fucking nice!๐Ÿ’œ (Weโ€™ll even forgive him for turning on the venueโ€™s lights for that one brief moment where he paused and leaned against the wall!) 

Near the end of their set, there is one special moment where Libby dedicates the following song to Tomas, their friend and the lead singer of Profane Sass who died on the road. The song was written for him, upon learning of his untimely death. The ways she talked about him and in reading up on him, it seems he was one of those one of a kind, magical people who radiated goodness and life force all around. He lived for the music and what that music could bring to people. I never knew him while he was alive, but itโ€™s beautiful to see heโ€™s still on the road, through his friends and touching people’s hearts. 

The set up until then had already been absolutely amazing, but this was a beautiful moment that put the cherry on top. A moment of musical synchronicity for me, especially when she sang the words โ€œOut of the darkness and heading out to seaโ€. I reflected on my own journey out of the darkness surrounding death and my journey ahead to the sea. The lyrics would prove to be even more synchronicitous a few days later when I yelled them into the surf. Itโ€™s one of those moments I will never forget. A moment, a story, a song and a band etched onto my soul forever. 

The Bridge City Sinners probably donโ€™t even fully know just how phenomenal and rare it is what they do, what they bring to their audience. If they do, it certainly doesnโ€™t show in their attitudes because the Sinners I got to talk to are wonderfully down to earth. 

There are no accurate words to describe the atmosphere in that venue, which was bulging at the seams at this impossibly perfect event. The band said it themselves, this would probably be the last tour theyโ€™ll be able to play smaller and more intimate venues like Trefpunt. I am SO ecstatic I got to be there, to experience up close and personal the intoxicating chaos and fury with which the Sinners approach their live sets. 

After the show I still have a ways to go even though I wrote down that I am not sure just how my legs are still functional. I am completely running on fumes and adrenaline. I walk back to the car with Jo & Tiho through a calm and peaceful city and drive up to the coast where I still find a last mere ounce of fuel to unload all my shit. I then collapse onto the bed for a happy and well earned slumber, not yet fully aware of the catharsis I just experienced and the one that still lays ahead.

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Gipsy, Kiel and Coco – A Story of musical synchronicity in Three Parts | Part 3: Coco and musical synchronicity

Part 3: Coco and Musical Synchronicity.

This is another series about synchronicity in music and synchronicity in threes. At the end of summer I was starting to get too far away from the feeling that the synchronicitous threes, rainbows and music had evoked. I was starting to treat writing about my musical encounters like a job, when music is really a calling to me. Music is calling to me and has been this whole year. One way or another. And thatโ€™s how it should stay, so I am documenting this to help me remember.ย 

In three simple nights, I am right back to where it started in March. I feel the surge of my purpose, the burn of why this all came along my path when it did, and the love for the music and artists and all the Purple People in their entourage. With music as my spirit guide, to lead me on a new path in life. The Purple thread I follow along the road to the best version of my self.ย 

In Part one, we find ourselves in The Black Flamingo.
In Part two, we spend some time at De Floeren Aap.
In this third and final part I am on the sofa, watching the movie Coco.

I’m writing this all down so I can finally learn to remember to never forget. Because it is so easily forgotten. I am posting this from a place where I am on the brink of having forgotten again. Where I can barely believe the words I have written here myself. Where all I want to do is shut out the world entirely. I am desperately retraining my mind to latch onto the positives as eagerly as it embraces the negatives. Searching for an upward spiral of sorts, away from the abyss. So here goes.

Around the time of Gipsy & Kielโ€™s tour, there is a lot going on in my life all at the same time. Life usually is a bit messy at the best of times, but this period contains a combination of stressors which make it even more difficult. Part of that mess is the fact that it is September, and almost a year ago that I had lost my father to a devastating disease. Remembering the feelings from sitting by his sickbed, seeing him turn into a shadow of his former self is weighing me down. During the year I had found him looking on in the musical synchronicity, which had helped me tremendously in my grieving process. 

I was starting to lose the connection. In the turmoil I found myself in, I started to roll back into old habits and feelings of hopelessness. I was still bathing in the music, revelling in its beauty. But I lost track of what had been the most important about it, what it actually signified. The hope of another life, another me who was strengthened and lifted up by the music as a sort of harness against the perils of the world. I still felt the beauty, but no longer the surge of strength it brought me. I could feel myself slipping away again in all the wrong coping strategies. 

Iโ€™d nearly hit bottom again. I was losing myself in grief, sadness and anger and could feel my sense of self become smaller again. After another awful day where the feelings of helplessness and hopelessness prevailed, everything inside me was screaming to stay in and shut myself away from the world. But I didnโ€™t, I forced myself to go against that feeling and I went to The Black Flamingo instead. I let myself drift on the waves of music that Gipsy and Kiel brought with them. I got to feel that warm hug of those Purple people around me again. (And that one guy, but you know, sometimes it takes something appalling to let the good shine out even more. I was intently protected from his aura of awful by those around.)

It didnโ€™t really sink in until the show on Monday though. Iโ€™d felt my dad there again, in The Black Flamingo. In the music. I heard it again in de Floeren Aap. He would have absolutely loved Gipsy Rufina and Kiel Grove. While hanging out with Ann we were talking each others ears off about just about anything. And it hit me, these are the types of people I need in my life. Full of positive energy, dreams and crazy life plans. Full of an all consuming LOVE and ADORATION for things. Around people like this, I donโ€™t have to put bits of myself away. I donโ€™t have to wear a mask or pretend, I get to wear my heart on my sleeve, where it should be!ย Somewhere the conversation turned to the tattoo Ann had of Dante, the dog from Coco. I had been contemplating watching that movie again because I was thinking of my dad and all those who went before him.

When the day of the third Gipsy/Kiel show came and my body screamed at me to give it some rest, I decided to give in to self care and self comfort. With a blanket and cat at the ready, I put on Coco and floated away in a world of music and colour.ย 

It underlined everything I have lived and learned through music since March. A story of a grieving process through finding myself again, finding my way to my people again and with music as a giant Purple thread throughout all of it. Coco is all about honouring your dead and speaking their name. Itโ€™s about destiny. Of going against the grain, about not just following the road of what is expected of you. About a belief in yourself that you cannot let go.ย ย 

Music is part of my destiny, in one form or another. Music as the fuel for my words and art. Music as a life force driving me from one place to another, discovering the world and its people. Music as a form of therapy, mindfulness and anti-depressant. In making it myself eventually. (Though I have still yet to successfully form or keep a band.) Itโ€™ll always be there alongside of me, in one form or another. I need to keep seeing it, feeling the fuel of it.ย 

My road seems riddled now with little reminders to it. At the end of the month, the day of the wild Bridge City Sinners gig, I am on a group outing. Suddenly, I am surrounded by the colour and wonder of Coco in this Dia de Los Muertos decor.

I smile and walk through it. Putting in my earbuds and FEELING the music that is playing.ย I want and NEED to learn to keep my eyes and ears open for these reminders of the beauty. It’s so easy to miss it all in the overwhelm when your senses get glazed over by the mist of darkness.

So I am leaving this note here. As a light, a shining beacon of how it can be, if I remember to REALLY see.

Gipsy, Kiel and Coco – A Story of musical synchronicity in Three Parts | Part 2: Gipsy and Kiel play De Floeren Aap

Part 2: Kiel Grove an Gipsy Rufina live @ De Floeren Aap, Mechelen| Monday, September 11th 2023

This is another series about synchronicity in music and synchronicity in threes. At the end of summer I was starting to get too far away from the feeling that the synchronicitous threes, rainbows and music had evoked. I was starting to treat writing about my musical encounters like a job, when music is really a calling to me.
Music is calling to me and has been this whole year. One way or another.
And thatโ€™s how it should stay, so I am documenting this to help me remember.
 
In three simple nights, I am right back to where it started in March. I feel the surge of my purpose, the burn of why this all came along my path when it did, and the love for the music and artists and all the Purple People in their entourage.
With music as my spirit guide, to lead me on a new path in life.
The Purple thread I follow along the road to the best version of my Self.

In Part one, we find ourselves in The Black Flamingo.
In Part two, we spend some time at De Floeren Aap:

Because Jo had been so empathic about just how Purple he thought Gipsy was, I was pretty sure attending a second date of this tour would by no means be a waste of my time. So when I received an excited message from Ann inviting me to the shows, (Whom Iโ€™d met at the James Hunnicutt & WhiskeyDick tour back in June.) I didnโ€™t hesitate for a second.

The fact that two very Purple people around me were pointing me simultaneously and independently in the same musical direction, was a surefire sign I was in for something special. The fact that the tour was passing through de Floeren Aap in Mechelen was an added bonus, since spending time in my home town is always a treat.ย 

After a short bike ride on a hot summer night, I arrive at the city centre and excitedly walk over to the table where Ann is sitting with her husband David. Even though we barely had a full conversation at the James Hunnicutt shows, it feels like sitting down with old friends. We immediately get to chatting about music and fire some recommendations this way and that. Some more Purple souls called Natasha & Pablo join the company at the table and the conversation swings into an oddly fluent and fluid mix of Dutch and English, which makes me feel even more at home.

Eventually both Kiel & Gipsy also join the party before deciding whoโ€™s going to open tonight via a game of rock paper scissors. The mix of English and Dutch gets complemented by a conversation in which Gipsy speaks Italian & Pablo answers in Spanish. I feel like Iโ€™m on holiday in my own city, locked away in this hidden square right near the bustling centre of town. Itโ€™s the language of music that brings people together.

Eventually we shuffle into The Floeren Aap, to the best spot in the house, just as Kiel takes the stage first. Now, even though I was better prepared having lived through one of his sets already and was aware of what I was about to encounter, my notes still reveal a general lack of accurate terms to describe Kiel Grove. I canโ€™t. I seriously cannot. I tried to pinpoint it in my post about his passage in The Black Flamingo, but it still doesnโ€™t seem to do it justice. The way he sort of plays and sings his tunes is pretty damn unique.ย 

I am again enthralled by his storytelling skills and even though I heard some of the tales before at the Flamingo, I am still just as transfixed in listening as I was just a few days ago. Iโ€™m not even going to try to retell them, youโ€™ll just have to discover them for yourself when Kiel next crosses the ocean for a tour in these parts. I decided to capture some of the pre-song banter to give a better idea of the Kiel Grove experience. Again, the video vibe is nowhere near the real deal but it should give some impression on the spellbinding narration and wizardry on the guitar.ย 

At this point I also want to point out that this is the 15th consecutive day these guys have been playing on their 21 day European tour. Can you imagine the general weariness youโ€™d feel on a near month long tour of driving and playing every day in the sweltering summer heat? And it doesnโ€™t show one bit in neither of their playing. Such is the life of the troubadour that it actually seems to only get better as the days go by. Of course, playing every day could also be seen as very good practice, which in any case really shows in the skilful way they both run through their setlists with ease.ย 

After a break for some somewhat cooler outside air and the petting of local dogs, (Kiel is clearly missing his four legged friend on tour, but is making do with love for other peopleโ€™s pets while on the road. My kinda people!) it is time for set two.

Weโ€™re in for some more Gipsy magic starring that bewitching banjo and enchanting voice. I sit there completely entranced watching him pick at his instruments, his hands a blur in the process. The spell is only broken when, between songs, I hear the voices from the terrace outside. I write down that I cannot understand how you can bear to stay outside for this. How that music doesnโ€™t draw those people in like moths to a flame. How they seem to be able to strike up casual conversations while this is happening in the foreground.

The only cover Gipsy plays on the tour, but WHAT a discovery for me. I’m in immediate love with this song.

Maybe itโ€™s just something in my constitution but I barely register people talking to me while this set is ongoing. Good music can never be in the background to me. Limited as my attention span may be, there is just something about good live music that seems to completely sweep me away from the perils of this mortal coil. I float in a gentle world between worlds, where my body is present in the present, but my soul is somewhere off dancing to the music and feeling its warm embrace.ย 

Me, Natasha, Pablo & Gipsy at de Floeren Aap

Unfortunately, all good things must come to an end, but even when the musical instruments are put away, Iโ€™m still halfway in that magical dreamland. We grab another table at the terrace and I vaguely remember trying to voice to Kiel & Gipsy how lovely I thought the experience was. We chat some more about musical influences and horror movies that are so bad theyโ€™re good again, and I leave with a bag of recommendations I still need to check out.ย (After a few blurry selfies to commemorate the night of course.)

I made a plan to see them one more time on that tour, which unfortunately fell through because my body decided too much is enough. In the last part of this story, I sadly spend that night at home, resting my weary bones and mind. Thanks to the engaging conversation with Ann however, the musical synchronicity of that night would still play on. (Within this picture you can already see a hint towards part 3 of this series!)

Ann & Me at de Floeren Aap
Ann & Me at de Floeren Aap

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Gipsy, Kiel and Coco – A Story of musical synchronicity in Three Parts | Part 1: Gipsy and Kiel play The Black Flamingo

Part 1: Gipsy Rufina and Kiel Grove live @ The Black Flamingo, Nijlen | Saturday, September 8th 2023

This is another series about synchronicity in music and synchronicity in threes. At the end of summer I was starting to get too far away from the feeling that the synchronicitous threes, rainbows and music had evoked. I was starting to treat writing about my musical encounters like a job, when music is really a calling to me.
Music is calling to me and has been this whole year. One way or another.
And thatโ€™s how it should stay, so I am documenting this to help me remember.
 
In three simple nights, I am right back to where it started in March. I feel the surge of my purpose, the burn of why this all came along my path when it did, and the love for the music and artists and all the Purple People in their entourage.
With music as my spirit guide, to lead me on a new path in life.
The Purple thread I follow along the road to the best version of my Self.

In Part one, we find ourselves in The Black Flamingo:

As loyal readers might already know, Black Flamingo Jo and I have an uncannily similar taste in music. When he told me a few months ago I NEEDED to be at The Black Flamingo for Gipsy Rufina, I took his words as gospel, as I tend to do these days. I didnโ€™t need to listen to the music in advance, I blindly trust Joโ€™s judgement in who he programs on his stage. Plus, I am loving discovering it all live before I dive into the recorded bits. He told me all about how Gipsy has been touring for nearly 20 years and how he was probably the last remaining troubadour. *TRIGGERED* 

What Jo failed to mention however, was that it was to be a double bill with Kiel Grove. I get a feeling Jo likes to keep some aces up his sleeve on purpose, just to keep me on my toes. Remember how he didnโ€™t tell me about James Hunnicutt and how well that turned out? I had a very similar experience discovering Kiel Grove. (Despite them being very different in sound and energy.) These are the kind of surprises I donโ€™t mind on my path at all. ๐Ÿ’œ Anyway, whereas I was already extremely excited for the night, I was yet again NOT AT ALL prepared for what was to come all the same. Iโ€™m still not sure if I can find the right words to describe these two astonishing artists, whoโ€™ve got music coursing through their very souls.

Driving up to The Black Flamingo is like arriving in a little paradise, hidden away from the big bad world. I make friends with some locals who are curious about what is going on in that shed up yonder. I get to pet their ancient dog Duck before running in, with my very Rock & Roll sitting donut in hand. One benefit of having a sore tailbone (and no longer giving a fuck if I look Rock & Roll) is that I get to throw that thing down, and go off to talk Joโ€™s ear off while still retaining the best seat in the house. We talk about all the music we still want to hear, some crazy musical road trip plans and all the Black Flamingo line-ups we still want to achieve.

The music draws me to my seat but alas, as it was just the soundcheck I was a little early to arrive. I get talked at by HE WHO SHALL NOT BE NAMED. I am not sure what the opposite of Purple is, but it was clear that this person was SO out of place in this safe haven of music. I will spare you the details of the conversation, only that I was getting gradually more angry at him for being generally disgusting and not taking some very clear no’s for an answer. (Don’t worry, my great pack of Purple People protectively separated me quickly from this waste of space and it’s safe to say he shall never return.)

The first notes of Gipsy finally brought sweet relief from the sexist pig and his persistence in offering up his โ€˜servicesโ€™. *shudder* As you can tell by the above picture, taken by Jo and graciously adorned with a very broad vignette blur, my disgust was quickly replaced by my customary ear to ear smile. The contrast in atmosphere couldn’t be more stark once I get to focus on the beautiful music.

Oh deary me. I spot a banjo and my heart starts to race. One expertly fingered strum and the sound is making everything else disappear around me. This is why weโ€™re here. To lose ourselves in the music. Were there still other people around me? There must have been? I can no longer be sure as I close my eyes and am one with the music. โ€œIโ€™m going to play some banjo for you, if you donโ€™t mind.โ€ No, I most certainly donโ€™t mind Gipsy, Iโ€™ve been waiting for it.

This is where I fervently draw an arrow to further on in my notes where I write โ€œAnd we definitely donโ€™t mind when you play it like that!โ€ The sound he draws from that banjo is unreal, itโ€™s like thereโ€™s a full band on stage. He goes crazy on his pedals and the distortion makes it sound extraordinary. He swiftly moves around every square inch of his beautiful instrument and hits every fret, chord and note like magic. Iโ€™ve seen many a banjo played expertly over the last couple of months, but this is something else. Meanwhile he brings out a harmonica and seems to be playing fifteen notes at once. It is mind-blowing, it is sensational.

And his voice? What a fucking marvellous instrument it is in its own right. It is raw, hoarse and heavy but gentle at the same time. Just how Iโ€™d imagined a troubadour to sound like. As he brings out his guitar, he starts to tell the story of Viola, a brigand who fought the pope. The story was passed on to him by his grandma, about the man who lived in the mountains 200 years ago. As Gipsy (aka Emiliano) starts to sing the song in his native Italian dialect, you can hear the indrawn breaths. For the next couple of minutes you can hear a pin drop as everyone listens completely captivated. My video does that song or the experience no justice at all. Much like my words fail to honour this experience. 

Purple doesnโ€™t BEGIN to describe it. We have to come up with another colour to define this. Maybe Terry Pratchettโ€™s octarine, the colour of magic, comes closer in describing the aura that Gipsy Rufina exudes. I am in love with the music, the songs, the words, the songs (I wrote this down twice, this is not a typo) and that voice. I am usually a woman of many words, but this performance left me actually wordless. I pick myself up out of the puddle on the ground I have become, and venture out into the cool night air to compose myself.

I have to drag myself back in because Iโ€™m about to miss Kiel Groveโ€™s first song. Thereโ€™s something special starting here. After being absolutely mesmerised by Gipsy Rufinaโ€™s performance, I thought anything that followed would never be able to compare or hold up against that set. I couldnโ€™t be more wrong, because here I am again just completely transfixed and blown away by the first few notes floating off the stage. Theyโ€™re entirely different musicians in both style and approach, different vibes as a person, (though both very much shaded Purple) but it feels like they were made to perform in tandem.

I am trying to place Kiel in the music he resembles or triggers memories of in my head. At one point in my notes, I place him somewhere between WhiskeyDick & James Hunnicutt and I also compare his storytelling to the infamous Johnny Cash. But really, Kiel Grove is incomparable. His voice is hypnotic, drawing you in with that delightful Texas accent and that deep dark timbre with some peculiar but delicious tone inflections. I could listen to him talking and singing all night, narrating the stories that he has gathered like little treasures from life on the road. The stories and songs are sometimes nonsensical, whimsical and funny, but always intriguing and delivered with a deadpan expression. 

His guitar playing is also something else. He seemingly effortlessly gets a sound from his instrument which I canโ€™t believe can just come from one bit of wood and strings. It somehow feels like thereโ€™s an invisible band around him, adding in some resonance and background. I see ONE man with ONE guitar, but I hear the soul of so much more sound. He deftly picks and plucks his strings, tells his stories and produces something indescribable.

Seeing the total package of a Kiel Grove performance is like being thrown back in time and I feel like the sofa Iโ€™m on could just as well have been placed in the mud at Woodstock. It feels like thereโ€™s echoes from a time long past interwoven in the music, almost like it doesnโ€™t fit in this modern time. Almost, because I absolutely welcome the anachronistic feel of the web of musical muses from the past he weaves into his songs.

After Kielโ€™s performance I finally found some of my words to talk to both artists and briefly compliment their sets. I have no idea what I told them because it felt like being on another planet and I still didnโ€™t have any idea how to describe what just happened to me during those two sets. I fear I still canโ€™t fully process it all. This is an account of events, but by no means a full one. All I know is, if I ever get a chance to see these wordsmith troubadours again, I will not hesitate one moment. 

I hang around the aura of awesome and get to talking to Ronny, who is as impressed as I am about what happened tonight. Turns out he is also in a band called Promise Down, whoโ€™d also played The Black Flamingo in January. Unfortunately, I was not yet aware of that piece of promised land in Nijlen at that point in time, so I had sadly missed their show that sounded really good looking back. I make a mental note to put them on my musical radar and promise Ronny to come see them soon!

After some more catch up chats with Purple Flamingoes I finally drive home smiling like crazy, a little stupefied, and a lot drunk on (love for) music.

Luckily for me, I already have the next Gipsy & Kiel tourstop circled in my calendar, which you’ll discover soon in part 2 of this series!

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De Mechelse Gruwelverhalen Wandeling

Klein Julieke was al vroeg fameus gefascineerd door griezel, gruwel en mysterie. Van de Griezelbus naar de Kippenvel reeks. Van de heksen van Roald Dahl zo goed als meteen richting Stephen King. (Het mocht nog niet, maar ik leende mijn vaders bibliotheekkaart lang voor de bib me King-rijp achtte.) Naar de X-Files mocht ik dan weer niet kijken, maar stiekem hielden Scully en Mulder me toch gekluisterd aan het scherm. UFOโ€™s waren daar de rode draad, maar de mystieke en bizarre wezens in de monster-of-the-week afleveringen vond ik toch altijd het meest meeslepend. De recente opleving van creepy ghost stories in series als The Haunting of Bly Manor en op een geheel ander niveau Stranger Things en remakes van klassiekers als IT doen mijn horror-hartje heropleven.ย 

Zitten er mythes, monsters en toverkollen in de boeken, films of series die ik verslind? Dan is de kans groot dat het me zal bekoren! De Mechelse Gruwelverhalen wandeling van Mysterieus Mechelen stond dan ook al JAREN bovenaan op mijn bucket list. Hoog tijd om eindelijk eens mee te lopen door het mysterieuze verleden van mijn favoriete stad! Afspraak aan het Opsinjoorke op de Wollemarkt (Voor de niet-Mechelaars, die kerel is eigenlijk al een gruwelverhaal op zich, maar goed, daarvoor zijn we niet hier!) op een uiterst aangename na-zomeravond in de herfst. Beginnen onder het licht van mijn favoriete toren. Ik kan het niet laten om, voor de mogelijk al honderdste keer, nagenoeg dezelfde foto te nemen van die toren die zoveel jaren geleden mijn hart heeft gestolen en ondertussen symbool staat voor thuiskomen.

sint romboutstoren Mechelen

Mechelen bruist vanavond van de activiteit, maar de geluiden van de stad verdwijnen al snel naar de achtergrond, als decor voor de duistere verhalen die gids Erwin Horckmans met heldere en goed dragende stem belicht. Normaal gesproken ben ik razendsnel afgeleid door wat er rondom mij beweegt, maar hier word ik meteen helemaal opgeslorpt door de kronieken van mijn stad!

Ik moet eerlijk bekennen dat ik bij het horen van de historiek rond de boerenkrijgers en hun massagraf รฉven was geschokt. Ik verwachtte me aan โ€˜onschuldigeโ€™ fictieve horror, geen waargebeurde verhalen over oorlog, dood en verderf van mijn medemens.

Gruwelverhalen indeed, griezelen dat doen we wel met Halloween!ย 

Bon, kleine mentale switch dus, maar top-gids Erwin maakt dat er van teleurstelling geen moment sprake kan zijn. Zijn levendige en visuele manier van vertellen zorgt er al snel voor dat ik het gevoel heb dat we over zijn schouder meekijken, langs de eeuwen heen. Ik voel me een anachronistische toeschouwer in het Mechelen van de 17e eeuw en beleef mijn stad op een heel andere manier. Los van de gruwel in de verhalen, zit er ook veel geschiedenis in verwerkt en ik heb hier enorm veel bijgeleerd over mijn stad. Het voelt een beetje onwezenlijk dat er achter de prachtige gevels van die gebouwen die ik al zo vaak van buitenaf bewonderde, zoveel afschrikwekkende gebeurtenissen hebben plaatsgevonden.ย 

Een brandstapel aanleggen is niet zo maar ‘vuurkestook’. Om een efficiรซnte crematie der Tooveresche te voorzien is er werk aan de winkel. Gids Erwin overloopt de handleiding!

De historiek van de Mechelse heksen en hun vervolging is boeiende materie voor iemand als ik, met enerzijds een voorliefde voor Tooveresche, (zoals ze in de Mechelse heksenvervolgingsvonnissen, nog steeds te raadplegen in de stadsarchieven, worden genoemd.) en anderzijds een redelijk feministisch en atheรฏstisch kantje. Eรฉn van de redenen waarom ik zo veel hou van Terry Pratchett (lees alhier zijn ode) is zijn voorliefde voor dit soort verhalen รฉn zijn HEERLIJKE heksen. Stuk voor stuk intelligente vrouwen, ver voor op hun tijd, verketterd door de clericale patriarchie. (Donโ€™t get me started, because you will not shut me up. Ontdek ze vooral zelf, van Granny Weatherwax tot Tiffany Aching, topwijven stuk voor stuk! <3) Dat kwam voor mij ook wel op de voorgrond in de verhalen die Erwin uitkoos en hoe hij ze ten berde bracht. Ik was dan ook niet verwonderd te horen dat zijn fascinatie voor het betere spookverhaal in de mistige vlakten en donkere pubs van het Verenigd Koninkrijk was ontsproten.

Halte 'De Duvelkes' of het Duivelshuis (Mechelen)
Halte ‘De Duvelkes’ of het Duivelshuis (Mechelen)

De verhalen over arme boerenjongens in de oorlog en de heksenverbrandingen zijn dan wel vaak zware kost, Erwinโ€™s gitzwarte gevoel voor humor en sappige omschrijvingen halen de scherpste kantjes er wel af. Ook de afwisseling met enkele spookverhalen en mythische monsters als de Nekker, maakt het iets minder donker aanvoelen, daar in de schaduwen van onze stad.

Ik ben alvast grote fan en loop zeker nog eens mee met een van de andere wandelingen van Mysterieus Mechelen. (De volgende staat al met stip in mijn agenda te pronken!) Tussendoor heeft Erwin me ook enorm getriggerd om zelf te gaan graven in de krochten van het mysterieuze verleden van mijn stad.ย Ideale hyperfixatie voor de komende winter, lijkt me!

Alle praktische info rond aankomende wandelingen vind je op de website van Mysterieus Mechelen. Niet twijfelen, gewoon doen! (Als je durft, mwoehahahaaaa!)

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Seaside musings, a coastal diary series. (Part THREE โ€“ Scene SIX)

My trip into the Flanders Fields left me feeling dejected. Even though it had been a nice day out, both in a trip and weather sense, I felt the weight of death on my shoulders. The deaths of all those soldiers, fighting a war others waged for them. Seeing those graves in Steenkerke with all those young boysโ€™ names and the memorial in Ramskapelle got me in a gloomy mood. And of course, closer to home and heart, all the memories of my dad dredged up by those two places left me feeling disconsolate.ย 

While catching my breath on the terrace, I see this beautiful rainbow in the sky. Aside from the music, the number three and feathers, thereโ€™d been a lot of synchronicitous rainbows this year too.

I take it as a sign for me to venture out again, clearing my head of the contemplative cobwebs. Another sunset stroll on the beach it is. This time I walk away from Nieuwpoort beach, in the direction of the Ter Yde Dunes nature reserve in Oostduinkerke. 

It starts off as another magical walk, reminiscing on the beautiful musical rainbows. I have yet to regale you with the tale of meeting the beautiful ultra-purple person that is Joey Henry, whom I met somewhere at the start of August. I havenโ€™t had the time to find the right words to describe the two nights I spent with him and his music. They will roll out in due time.

Letโ€™s just say that aside from being an immensely talented musician, heโ€™s also a phenomenal photographer. I snagged one of his prints, Kansas rainbow included, at the first of his shows I saw at Den Oude Ketel. (Yes, the very same spot where I saw that other impossible rainbow months earlier, after that magical James Hunnicutt set.)

Kansas Rainbow print by Joey Henry

All this to say, I had rainbows, music and photography on my mind. So I channel my inner puddle & cloud photographer as I set off along the empty shoreline, singing loudly.

I see the bunker and walk back up the beach and climb to the crest of the dunes. I sit and rest, taking in the amazing sight of the sunset from my vantage point. 

I decide to walk back before I lose the light completely. I put in my earbuds and start my playlist at random when of course, none other than โ€˜In the Mirrorโ€™ by The Interrupters starts playing. The song that started off this series, and the one I was singing just moments earlier.

I wander further along the waves, howling along to Raised by Wolves. This is so cathartic I decide to delve deeper into the melancholy.

James Hunnicutt live at The Black Flamingo (With Fritz and the Reverend from Whiskey Dick)

I start off with โ€˜Donโ€™t let teardrops fill your eyesโ€™ by James Hunnicutt and of course, teardrops start filling my eyes, like this song invariably seems to do.ย I send him a text scolding him for this awfully amazing song and thanking him profoundly for what it keeps doing to me. ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

It leads me to the playlist we played at my dadโ€™s funeral starting with โ€˜De Grote Voyageโ€™ by Willem Vermandere, whose house I just sat in front of earlier that day.

Iโ€™m sobbing and laughing, feeling everything all at once. A beautiful mess of BIG emotions. I scream the lyrics into the void of the sea. I walk on with โ€˜Weโ€™ll meet againโ€™ by Johnny Cash in my ears. It feels like my father is looking on and saying to me, though Johnnyโ€™s baritone timbre:

“Keep smiling through
Just like you always do
‘Til the blue skies chase those dark clouds far away”

We’ll Meet Again – Johnny Cash

So I walk on. With a smile on my face. Deciding to go for some fries at a snackbar with a cute dog in their logo.The nice purple people saw I was taking a pic and invited the critter himself over.

The dog is named Gaspard, and he reminded me (in more ways than one) of Gaspode from Discworld, only one of my favourite characters in the series. I mean. Talk about everything being connected. (In MY mind at least. Itโ€™s a special place inside my skull, I like it here, even though it is always just a little on fire.)

He starts cuddling up to me and I am sobbing while smiling again. One of the last conversations I remember having with my dad, is about cuddling up to a dog and the horse Iyota from hippo-therapy and telling him how happy it had made me. And him reponding thoughtfully ‘They know, you know, they sense it’ even though I never truly told him how dark the thoughts beforehand had been. I love you, Gaspard people and especially you my little doggo friend! (Great fries too!)

After another doggie selfie, this time with the Nieuwpoort Saint-Bernard, who fills me with SO MANY youthful family memories again, it is time to go back home.

I fall asleep like a log and wake up in the middle of the night. I go onto the balcony for another breath of fresh air and drink in the silence. And just as I think to myself โ€˜All is quiet on the Western Frontโ€™, I see a fisher boat with a huge flock of LOUD seagulls in tow.

I see you dad, I hear you. Good night.ย 


PS: The title of this blog refers to yet another song. About death. Suprise. It didn’t fit in with the rest of the sentiment of this post so I added it here, as an aside. I’d say ‘enjoy’, but it is definitely not that type of song. It is pretty damn haunting.

Seaside musings, a coastal diary series. (Part THREE โ€“ Scene FIVE)

Every time we came on a family trip to the coast, there was one specific trip inland. A visit to the city of Veurne and/or walking through the sleepy fields of Oeren nearby. A walk to the MiniPri where we got to pick out ONE TOY. It was a HUGE toy store in my memory, but turns out to be a store with one toy aisle. (Time has stood still there, they still sell Britney Spears & Eminem posters from the early nillies. Itโ€™s a little weird, but comforting nonetheless.)

So my search for treasured memories drives me inland today, to the quiet town of Steenkerke in that same region.

When I was old enough to go to the coast myself, my dad gave me the same advice every time: โ€˜Jul, you have to go to Steenkerkeโ€™. And then when I was there, a message: โ€˜Jul, have you been to Steenkerke?โ€™. It had everything to do with his love for music and art, which combined itself in the Flemish artist Willem Vermandere. A philosopher, poet, writer, etcher, painter, sculptor and a singer-songwriter with an impressive oeuvre.

Two years ago, I finally listened and fell deeply in love with the artist whoโ€™d Iโ€™d only heard of in passing before. I read (and immediately bought) his book Als โ€˜t maar Geestig is and set off to discover his hometown Steenkerke.

On the way to and from there, I was entranced by his music that fit so well with the scenery of the Flanders Fields. Some of it light-hearted, but some deeply rooted in the horrible happenings in those fields, like the album Altijd iemands vader, altijd iemands kind (Always someone’s father, always someone’s child). It’s a true masterpiece of musical storytelling.

In Steenkerke, like in so many places around West-Flanders, thereโ€™s a military graveyard from the first World War, with graves of too many young men who lost their lives in a cruel and useless war. (Like there is any other kind.) This visit in 2021, combined with my journey to Ypres, where I was moved to tears by the daily tribute of The Last post at the Menin gate, inspired me to make my own piece of protest-art.

Within this collage I sprinkled in some music which reminds me of the wars of my lifetime. The ones fought in Iraq and Afghanistan, after 9/11 happened, which in turn made me VERY conscious of world politics. The skull is made up of the lyrics to the heartwrenching song Hero of War by Rise Against and I added in the title of Let them Eat War by Bad Religion. 

It was reading Willem Vermandereโ€™s book that drove me to enrol in the Art Academy, where I found joy in creating again after a very long hiatus. This was the first piece I made after some dark years where I lost my passion for creation. In a way, Vermandere was the instigator for the Clumsy Crane Studio Instagram that now also includes my great love of writing. The music has ALWAYS been a common thread on the page, all my own favourite pieces of art were inspired by or named for songs.

Back to Steenkerke. My plan for today was to spend an afternoon on the terrace of his favourite pub, one he wrote this song about. (It was the place where I bought the book and enjoyed a nice local beer on the last my last visit, as pictured above.) Alas, this being after the high season, the cafรฉ was closed for a yearly holiday. I saw my plans for writing with the church in back of me, his house in front of me and his spirit near me fade away. But then I find this spot in the grass and decide to start writing there, overlooking the polder. 

The sound of nature takes over and I realise this is the better option. Writing with a bunch of bike tourists surrounding me would have been another experience indeed. All I hear now is the wind gently caressing the leaves of the trees and about ten different species of bird tweeting merrily away. Somewhere in the distance I hear some church bells jingling a joyful tune. Around me thereโ€™s the fluttering of butterflies, ladybugs and other summery critters enjoying the last rays of sun. 

In this sleepy silent town I seem to be completely on my own. Alone, but not lonely. I am surrounded by memories and profoundly content with my own company. Feeling that artful soul across the street brings some extra oxygen. As if a cosmic connection is supporting me while writing. I lie back and stare at the clouds and drink it all in. 

There’s the tiny church behind me, filled with some of his beautiful works of art. He wrote the following song about it. My favourite lyric is this:

O ik wil het al nog geiren geloven,
dat mirakel van die zes kruiken wijn
en van Lazarus die al drie dagen dood was,
were levend, meer moet dat nie zijn.

Dat is ‘t werk van zangers en dichters,
als ‘t maar rijmt, is ‘t een fluitje van ne cent,
dat Jezus zijn moeder nog maagd was,
is dat geen geestig vertellement!

Roughly translated that goes:

Oh, I want to gladly believe it all
The miracle of those six jugs of wine
And of Lazarus who’d been dead for three days
Alive again, that’s all it takes.

That’s the work of singers and poets,
If it just rhymes, it’s a piece of cake,
That Jesus’ mother was still a virgin,
Isn’t that a droll tale

After I’m done writing, I step into the church to wander past Vermandereโ€™s paintings, etches and sculptures again. I refrain from putting his music on because the Gregorian church music, which I kind of really despise and always have, reminds me of my father again. I take my sweet time looking at every piece in detail and marvel at the imagery and colours. 

The beauty and intricacy of the works doesn’t really translate into pictures.  I get especially transfixed by this one, drinking in every brushstroke and bit of shading in these striking colours with hungry (and quite frankly a little jealous) eyes.

In trying to research what this piece is called (no luck yet), I just found out this piece I saw on my first night in Nieuwpoort. It was made in remembrance of the Great War and is called Verzoening or Atonement. It is placed on the geographical starting point of the Western Front right near the pier.

I walk back out of the church, put on my hiking boots and wander off in the distance. After a while, my thirst, which I was supposed to quench at that little terrace, takes over. Nothing is open within walking distance, so I decide to drive over to Ramskapelle and I unknowingly end up at the perfect writing spot. Another place where time stood still, with a slightly camp but lovely decorated terrace and some beautiful inspiring wall art. 

A chill and very 80s soundtrack in the background, a very LOUD but soothing conversation between two local ladies in that lovely West-Flanders dialect and some nice regional beers on the menu. The air feels warm, and smells of a rain shower that never happens. What else could a person want? Fate drove me here. I start writing. Crocodile Rock jumps on in the background. I smile and think of Joey Clyde

Before going home I honour my farmer family roots by making friends with a sheep and admiring some farming equipment. Dad would have been proud of me today.

Seaside musings, a coastal diary series. (Part TWO – Scene FOUR)

With the work on my website done, itโ€™s time to go out and play in the sun! Time to chase my fever dreams and finally dig my toes into the sand. My feet firmly stuck in the sea, feeling the waves splash against my legs and my hair getting tussled by the wind. And in this moment I am happy. Cue another songโ€™s lyrics getting stuck on loop in my brain. I can’t say I even mind.

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind, pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy, happy

Incubus – Wish You Were Here

After some more splishing and splashing through the surf, I end up near a shrimp fisher. My bird watchers book had taught me earlier that the ebb is a fine time for admiring the flocks of birds cruising the shore for some snacks. Boy, was I in for a treat myself! A gigantic flock of seagulls (quite possibly European Herring Gulls to be more specific.) is having a feast of seaside spoils. Time for a photoshoot!

  • Seagull feeding on Nieuwpoort Beach
  • Seagull feeding on Nieuwpoort Beach
  • Seagulls feeding on Nieuwpoort Beach
  • Seagulls feeding on Nieuwpoort Beach
  • Seagulls feeding on Nieuwpoort Beach
  • Seagulls feeding on Nieuwpoort Beach
  • Seagulls feeding on Nieuwpoort Beach
  • Seagulls feeding on Nieuwpoort Beach
  • Julie and her birb friends

Eventually my sore legs and feet drag me back to the same beach bar from yesterday where I score another swing seat. Commence three hours of languidly scrolling, writing, drawing and watching cute doggies frolic in the sand.

Instagram treats me to some Jen Razavi and I am immediately back in Duffel at the start of August. (Another of my stories on backlog, where I will tell you about the amazing Women of Brakrock.) I am falling back into memories of music, so I put on some tunes while writing this. Am not disappointed. It starts off with The Devil Makes three, follows up with some Bridge City Sinners and then falls into this one:

Well, I am not drunk as hell, but I am definitely enjoying my local beer, drinking in this amazing view and those BEAUTIFUL CLOUDS.

The music seeps in again as I am enjoying the nice weather. A slightly more prominent sea wind than yesterday rocks me gently in my seat. And in this moment I am happy. Happily enjoying the break from the chaos, both good and bad, from the last years. Joyously revelling in the good company of the music in my ears and wind in my hair. 

With my shoes strung across my shoulders, I walk home barefoot. I donโ€™t think Iโ€™ve ever felt the concept of mindfulness as deeply as I did today. The sand and water around my ankles, the sun on my face and the wind blowing all worries away.

Mindfully enjoying the clouds

Admiring the cloudy views and feeling the stones of a slightly altered version of my childhood under my feet. I cannot help but smile.

Seaside musings, a coastal diary series. (Part TWO – Scene THREE)

See me sitting at the computer, trusted cup of coffee at hand, clicking and typing industriously. I am finally getting around to updating my website, reworking the layout of the basic pages. I had been meaning to do this overhaul for a while now, but I kept postponing it because life was happening. I was also having too much fun documenting all of those happenings in the words you read on here. Which is perfectly fine. Live while Iโ€™m alive and sleep when I am dead and all that, as Bon Jovi used to sing. 

Today however, I do have a use for this restful Sunday. While the coastal town is busy bustling with activity, I am avoiding all that hustle by web designing with a view. It is nice to take a break for once. Iโ€™d been running on fumes for a while now, as I spoke about at length in the first part of this seaside series. But it wasnโ€™t all stress and bad energy that left me in need of a break. After resurfacing from the dark abyss, I found the music again with Pete Bernhard at The Black Flamingo in March and I havenโ€™t stopped seeing amazing shows (both large and small) since then. 

On my fathers birthday in April and the second show of Peteโ€™s I saw, I decided to get DownSideUp going again. I will be eternally grateful to Jo because as I said before , he played an integral part in me firing this website up again. Me being my neurodivergent self, I needed this space back online as soon as I could. This meant not thinking too much about where I wanted to go with this, and just throwing something together to get to posting. I didnโ€™t want to lose myself in my overly perfectionist former marketing & communications self, and lose the momentum of writing. I am so glad I told UX, SEO and all that jazz to fuck right off. 

But today, I carved out a bit of time to rework and translate. The design is still far from perfect, but from now on I live by the creed that done is always better than perfect. (And to be fair, perfection probably doesnโ€™t even really exist, another man-made concept to steer clear of.) In any case, at least now the setup makes more sense and brings focus to what is the most important: THE WORDS! And seeing as how my bilingual narrator writes in both Dutch and English, I decided to translate the basic pages to the latter language. Most Flemish and Dutch people understand English anyway and Iโ€™m making international friends again who wouldnโ€™t be able to understand the Dutch bits. So there, fixed(-ish). 

Hunger calls me back to reality and I venture out for some much needed carbs to accompany my lovely meaty treat I bought yesterday. Something pulls at my gut again and I step into a store on the way back. There I find this cutie calling my name. My neurodivergent ass LOVES stuffed animals, so I could not resist when I saw this soft crocco-fella. 

Julie happily smiling while holding her new friend

On the way home I named him Joey Clyde, for Joey Steel and Clyde McGee, as a reminder of a spectacular Friday and this subsequent ‘finding myself’ holiday at the coast. You will remember Clyde from that fateful Pete Bernhard gig in April at Tequila Tattoos, that helped set things in motion for the reemergence of DownSideUp. Heโ€™d promised me then to get me on the guestlist for his Bridge City Sinners show, which he graciously did. (Remember that BEST GIG OF THE YEAR bit in part one of this series? Yes, it was them. I will tell you ALL about it in due time.) Synchronicitous as always, this song starts playing in my headphones while I am writing this. 

But have I told you about my friend Joey? I met him last year at Punk in Drublic and we have kept in contact ever since. He’s an amazing musician and singer in FIVE bands, an anarchist and LGBTQIA+ ally, a great thinker and self proclaimed shit talker, with his own most interesting podcast ‘Dispatches from the Underground‘. He’s also a tour manager and any band fortunate enough to count them into their entourage, should thank their lucky stars. (He will be prominently featured in the imminent Bridge City Sinners post.)

Thanks to Joey, I got to invite Jo, Tiho and Ann & David (Whom Iโ€™d met at the Whiskey Dick/James Hunnicutt double bill at The Black Flamingo. More on them later, because the music brought us back together for Gipsy Rufina and Kiel Grove a few weeks ago. That is YET ANOTHER series of posts I am working on!) to experience the chaos that was that amazing Bridge City Sinners gig with me. He made that night even more special for me, because I could share the music and pay it all forward by getting those lovely people on the guest list.

When I got to the apartment, I noticed Joey Clyde had a stitch loose on his neck which I fixed with needle and thread, giving him a badass scar. Joey recently underwent a major surgery, resulting in a similarly badass scar on his neck. Musical synchronicity in full force right there. (Have you noticed this is scene three? I HAVE!) 

Me and Joey at Trefpunt Gent after the Bridge City Sinners show

I will forever treasure my new crocodile friend Joey Clyde as a visual reminder of a mindblowing night and seaside holiday.

Tiho, me and Clyde at Trefpunt Gent after the Bridge City Sinners show

Follow Clyde McGee:

And check out his bands:

  • Bridge City Sinners
  • Clyde and the Milltailers

Follow Joey Steel:

And check out his bands:

  • All Torn Up!
  • Skull Caster
  • Cop/Out
  • JS & the Attitude Adjusters
  • Bowhead

Seaside musings, a coastal diary series. (Part ONE – Scene TWO)

Here I am, walking along the shoreline while the sun is setting behind me.

I came to look at the sunset from the vantage point of the dunes, but something pulled me to the waterโ€™s edge. Though there are still plenty of people out and about, it feels like at this moment it is just me, the wind and the waves. 

waves crashing into the shoreline

No music this time, except the sound mother nature provides. The rushing of the waves into the shoreline and the wind whooshing along in harmony.

This most soothing silent sound fills my world. A panoptic blanket of white noise takes me in its arms and shelters me from the rest of the world around me. 

I spot a few washed up jellyfish and get completely entranced and start taking pictures. The light hits them just right. What an amazing sight to see.

A little sad and melancholy as well, since chances are these graceful yet delicate sea creatures are dead or dying.


Thatโ€™s nature for you. The undercurrent brings the jellyfish to the surface, where they wash up on shore and dehydrate. The sea is as cruel as it is soothing. 

In creeps the music again, (As if I could ever avoid it.) by way of this Flogging Molly Sea Shanty ‘Cruel Mistress’ worming it’s way into my brain.

But actually, the sea is neither cruel nor kind. Thatโ€™s what man made of it, anthropomorphising a body of water out of fear and misunderstanding. The sea lives and is in turn teaming with life, both above and below the surface. Yet it can never be cruel, nor can it be kind, because it simply gives no fucks. The sea just exists in a series of ebb and flow movements, drawn in and out by the gravitational pull of the moon. Ebb and flow. Ebb and flow. Ebb and flow. Day in and day out. To be more like the seaโ€ฆ 

Nieuwpoort Pier, seaside view, night

Thereโ€™s a therapy analogy that helps you look at recovery from depression and burnout (and pretty much life in general) as a series of waves. You cannot be happy all the time and you will not be sad all the time. My life over the years has felt like a road of sky-scraping peaks and rock bottom valleys. Losing so much of myself in the darkness of those deep chasms. My sense of self. My sense of wonder. The things I am good at, and the things I love doing. Writing is one of those, but photography used to be that as well. 

Well, this moment in time is where I draw the line in the sand and say: no more of that. Yes there will be ups and downs, there always are in life. But from now on I will be more like the sea, a slow and steady ebb and flow. Because thereโ€™s always a new day tomorrow, where the moon can pull on me again to bring me onto shore.ย 

As I walk up the pier, smiling when I hear two kids singing โ€˜Laat ons een bloemโ€™ by Louis Neefs.ย Another song that is filled with fond memories of family, the child within me and so many more I canโ€™t even begin to list. I keep walking, entranced by the view, the sounds, and the activity of the night-fisherpeople.

It is again so fitting, so synchronicitous to hear this song at this point in time. See me walking into the future, with the music as my compass and guiding light. ๐Ÿ’œ

Seaside musings, a coastal diary series. (Part ONE – Scene ONE)

I am sitting at a beach bar in Nieuwpoort, the day after another one of my favourite nights and shows of the year. I have several, they keep on accumulating. Youโ€™d think that at some point I wouldnโ€™t be yelling โ€˜THIS WAS THE BEST GIG OF THE YEARโ€™, but here we are. 

I was on the way to the butcher for a delicious meaty treat for myself (I know, I am an awful animal lover!) and wanted to walk with the North Sea in full view. I followed my gut away from the busy looking bit of the dike of Nieuwpoort beach. Seeing the squirming of all the sunny Saturday tourists made me stop in my tracks, think to myself โ€˜NOPE, not todayโ€™ and swiftly turn the other way. The reward for trusting my gut feeling was nearly instant. After noping out of the first bar (WAY too loud and hip for my taste) I settled on the second beach bar in sight. Swing chairs with a dune and ocean view? Yes, please! I settled in, put my headphones on and fired up the Spotify playlist I started with my good friend Jo.ย 

How synchronicitous that this song should come on while writing this. The lyrics are etched into my soul.

Took me two years to write this song, I wanted it perfect, no wrinkles in it.
Took me a long time to come clean, To be honest, the truthโ€™s so ugly.

No matter how far I run, I always end up back here.
No matter how far I go, I always end up back here.
In the mirror, in the mirror, in the mirror, only in the mirror.

I always felt so out of placะต, In a crowded room, I speak too soon
Yeah I put a big smilะต on my face, I canโ€™t let them know itโ€™s all for show, No

Iโ€™m tired of running, Iโ€™m tired of running, Iโ€™m tired of running, Iโ€™m tired of running, Iโ€™m tired of running, Iโ€™m tired of running, Iโ€™m tired of RUNNING

The Interrupters – In the Mirror

I saw The Interrupters earlier this year (in the chaotic gig-filled month of June I am still scrambling to write fully about.) and broke my voice while singing along to this song. It was yet another cathartic experience in this insanely amazing year of music, that keeps piling those moments on top of each other. But I digress.

As I sit lie here, contentedly swinging in my beach chair while writing, a gentle sea breeze blows through my hair. I realise I am no longer my own worst enemy. In fact, I am thoroughly enjoying my own company. No outside stressors or responsibilities. Just me myself and I, tuning the world out by way of The Best Playlist in the World. The salty sea air in my nose, my notebook at hand and barely any humans in sight. All I see is sandy dunes, a lot of sunshine with a few clouds, the beautiful North Sea and some kites floating merrily in the wind.

The dunes and clouds of Nieuwpoort Bad

It all emphasises how sorely I needed this getaway after nearly three years of constant stress, darkness & self-doubt. Iโ€™ve resurfaced after one of the worst periods in my life in general. First there was the burnout and subsequent depression that I could not seem to crawl out of. Followed by a stupid incident in which I broke my foot and the slow healing process over the gruellingly boring summer of 2021. Then a string of injuries and illness in the family, resulting in the caring for (and about) both my mother and father. (Which left the summer of 2022 without music as well, aside from Punk in Drublic.)

Then came the death of my father around this time last year, and another tumble down that jet black abyss followed. The music and Purple People saved me from that one. As I was slowly crawling out of that hole, I ended a 17 year long relationship and started a nine month long, intense group therapy process which I am now halfway through. I might not have been working, but my mind never seemed to get a moment’s rest either way. 

How the fuck did I ever expect to get myself out of a burnout that had been in the works for YEARS, while still burning the candle at both ends? It was delusional to think I could have done it alone. Nevertheless, I am sure that this sequence of events was not without meaning in and of itself. I am sure to my core I needed to pass through all of that to end up here. Both figuratively and literally speaking. I needed to end up here, at this exact moment in time, in this particular place in space. I will look back on this and see what a huge step it will have been in my healing process. I am beyond sure of that. 

Over the last couple of years I had been having these weird anxiety filled stress dreams, about being near the sea and not finding my way to the beach. I have been YEARNING to put my feet in the ocean and feel the wind in my hair since before the lockdown of 2020. I have finally arrived and made it to my own private beachfront holiday.

I am bathing myself in profoundly precious memories in the coastal town where my grandparents bought an apartment the year I was born. I spent every summer of my childhood here with my family. I am treasuring those echoes of the past, of my inner child deep within. Itโ€™s in the smells of the sand & sea, of the gasoline in the parking garage below the apartment. Itโ€™s in the view of the beautifully repainted waterfront property with the words Inchโ€™ Allah embedded in the stone. It always links back to the music, in this case the song by Adamo, an artist I dearly love courtesy of my mother and grandmother.

Being here on this second day of Autumn, enjoying probably one of the last Indian summer days of the year, feels positively magical. I spent a chaotic but intensely rewarding day yesterday getting over a LOT of fears, both real and imaginary. (Fear of heights and roller coasters, group dynamics, traffic and bad weather combined with very tight schedules and timelines. A right mess for a neurodivergent person such as myself.) It morphed into one of the best days and nights of 2023. (And that is saying something!) I was surrounded by good friends and like minded souls in the midst of the all encompassing piece of life that is The Music.

I feel like I am finally discovering myself as an actual person. And most importantly, I like that face staring back at me in the mirror, for the first time in maybe EVER.

'The most beautiful thing you can become is yourself' - picture of Julie taken (in the mirror) at Trefpunt Ghent
‘The most beautiful thing you can become is yourself’ – taken (in the mirror) at Trefpunt Ghent

That all of this should happen NOW and HERE is nothing less than prophetic. It is fate. It is destiny. It is another bit of proof I am walking the right road. MY road. The road I was meant for from the start. Iโ€™ve been walking it all along, but I just now passed the bit in between where there were no lights, signage or roadmarks. It feels good to be on the other side. To be able to breathe and let go of the anxieties that have been stuck to me for all these years. I see a light at the end of the tunnel and I am walking towards it. Smiling to myself. Following where the music takes me next.

(Re)make myself.

I got my ADHD diagnosis last year at the ripe โ€˜oldโ€™ age of 36. In learning more about it, a LOT finally started to make sense. Why the life I was building for myself never really seemed to fit me. Why I never seemed to reach my own potential. However, there was still a puzzle piece missing. I got tested for both ADHD & Autism Spectrum Disorder at the same time. I had become so adept at masking myself, I did not get diagnosed as being on the spectrum. In subsequently talking to people, and reading up about autism and neurodivergence, I realised that diagnosis was wrong. I am both autistic and have ADHD. All those little quirks and difficulties I experienced all through life suddenly became one of two. The constant battle in my head between order and chaos was suddenly very clear. 

My life was made of masks, one for every occasion. First I hid my true self away, out of fear of not being accepted. Of being seen as weak. Of being perceived as weird. Of being thought of as a failure. Of being known as difficult. I became the person I thought I should be, not the person I actually was. It was a recipe for disaster. I was a ticking time bomb waiting to erupt. Last year I finally learned why everything always seemed SO much harder for me. Life in general, school, work and interpersonal relationships. 

But when I learned about, and started to accept and work around my (self)diagnosis as AuDHD, that became a mask in and of itself. I started to apologise for myself and my way of thinking about things and my way of doing things because of what those disorders meant to me. I have ADHD so I must be LOUD and OBNOXIOUS, SORRY. At the same time I am autistic, but because I am such a LOUD AND OBNOXIOUS ADHD’er, I didnโ€™t feel like I had the right to claim the space, peace and tranquillity I needed. It was a constant struggle with myself and not in the least, with the people around me. 

This year, right around the time I was rediscovering myself in the music and the words, I started group therapy in a clinic near me. I am so unbelievably grateful for having found that path. In the last three and a half months I have learned SO much about myself and moreover, myself in the world around me. It has been challenging and confronting at every turn. But I am slowly learning to understand myself and treat myself with the same compassion and empathy with which I approach other people. Itโ€™s a process with big ups and downs, but it is so unbelievably rewarding.

It really should not have come as such a surprise to me that I am my own worst enemy. I make life so much harder on myself by trying to do everything right. For myself, but especially for those around me. I adapted a mask very early on, hid myself away and pretended to be strong for years. Because I thought that was helping those around me, not having to worry about me and the dark abyss I was tumbling into. In reality, by pretending to be made of stone, I continued the fallacy that we should all be made of granite. That there is no room for us to crumble, even just a little. 

I am now slowly learning that vulnerability is a strength and not a weakness. How itโ€™s okay to not be okay. And how in showing and talking about my own struggles, others learn to find the words to describe their fragility and pain as well. There is beauty in recognition and unity in commiseration. We all struggle with things, why not struggle together? A sorrow shared is a sorrow halved. Because in sharing and commiserating, we can all grow together.

This blog started as a simple foreword to a piece about music. I was going to write about finding synchronicity in music again thanks to two shows by Gipsy Rufina & Kiel Grove. (Don’t worry, I WILL get to them!) How reconnecting with Ann, whom I met at the James Hunnicutt & Whiskey Dick gigs, led me to watch Coco again and what that meant to me in this dark September month. But the foreword developed a mind of its own and turned into this. It was meant as a sort of apology to all the bands and artists I promised my words to over the last couple of months. But in letting loose and just following the words, I realise I have nothing to apologise for.

Thereโ€™s something to be said for continuity and following the precise sequence of events. Itโ€™s nice and neat and comprehensible. (Some might even call it Nice & Accurate!) It is expected. Iโ€™m usually a stickler for doing things by the rules. It brings order to my disorderly brain. But I keep losing myself in trying to do everything perfectly. In thinking more of what my actions (or inactions) might signify to others, than in realising how hard those thoughts are weighing ME down.

I am trying to break away from that to preserve my own sanity and build myself back up in the best way possible. So I donโ€™t get burnt out from the thing that was curing my burnout. So for now I am done following the rules and promises I made in my head, because they were preventing me from telling the stories. 

From now on the stories will be posted as they present and write themselves in my head. The stories recorded during this magical, musical summer (and beyond) WILL get told with all the love I felt while experiencing it. But in their own time, in my time.

Hereโ€™s to chaos and anarchy. Hereโ€™s to doing things my way. 

RESIST. UNLEARN. DEFY.

An aside about the songs: The three songs in this blog are by a band that has a very special significance to me. Remember that message board I wrote about in my last blog on Terry Pratchett? Well, it was called Incuboard and was dedicated to Incubus. Sort of, anyway. I met some very special people there and I still remember that period very fondly. I lost track of the band a little around when they brought out Light Grenades. But I will never lose track of their previous albums and songs. They helped make me who I am to this day. They ring as true now, as they did back then.

I subconsciously chose three songs off the same album Make yourself. This was not planned, even though the title of this blog was inspired by the title song from that album. Synchronicity I guess. In threes, as always. The cover picture is inspired by a lovely art book the singer made, called White Fluffy Clouds. His art very much inspired my own. The piece below was my vague interpretation of the cover art of his book.

To Sir Terry Pratchett, an ode long overdue.

Terry Pratchett, a man, a myth, an absolute legend.

I honestly cannot believe it took me this long to write an ode to one of my greatest role models. A man who has shaped my mind and probably my words more than I can ever note. A man Iโ€™ve sadly never got to meet, but still viscerally miss deeply and dearly, ever since his passing from this mortal coil. A man whose imagination and sense of wonder inspired so much in me, whose wit and humour has pulled me from many a dark place.

I am of course talking about the wonderful and magical Terry Pratchett. As hyperfixations go, STP and his books have been the most steady in my life by far. I am filled with unconditional love for him, so I cannot believe it has never spilled out into my written words. He’s on of the only people I would ever dare to commemorate in a tattoo, as I did.

I have always loved reading, ever since I was little. I adored fantasy and horror books and was reading Stephen King well before I was allowed to by our local library. Having said that, I always left room for other types of books as well. I always read them in Dutch, until a wonderful English teacher broke open my world by allowing us to read books way beyond our grade level.

I must admit that since discovering Terry Pratchett, I have never strayed far from fantasy again and I have barely read anything in Dutch. Part of that is due to time constraints in growing up of course, but the Discworld books unlocked a part of me I can never put back. 

I have found few authors and books who, at least to me, could compare to the immensely imaginative and clever way of writing and world building that seemed to come so naturally to him. (Notable exceptions in the fantasy/sci-fi genre are Douglas Adams, Georg R.R. Martin and Pratchettโ€™s good friend Neil Gaiman, co-author of the incomparable Good Omens. That book, and subsequent BBC-series, deserves its own full fledged glowing ode, which I will one day get to writing. But I digress.) 

It was on a message board roundabout 2006 when I first heard of Sir Terry, my Dutch friend Rob told me to look up the Discworld series. The Discworld is an alternate universe where a flat disc world sits on the backs of four elephants on top of the Great Aโ€™tuin, a giant star turtle, floating through the galaxy.

The books are a hilarious mix of parody of real world events and issues, folklore and myth, and they’re full of nods to great literary works throughout the ages. They are filled with wonderfully imperfect characters who you canโ€™t help but love, many of which are very strong women who donโ€™t take kindly to the patriarchal society in which they live. It was probably my first impression of real life feminism and I had to find it in fantasy books. ANYWAY.

My library didnโ€™t have an extensive Discworld collection, so I couldnโ€™t start reading chronologically. I chose the 25th novel The Truth, which is all about the first printing press and newspaper coming to the Disc. As an aspiring journalist, my interest was immediately piqued when I read the blurb on the back. It took me a little while to get used to the lack of chapters and immense layering of the stories, but I still fell immediately and hopelessly in love with the genuine wit and wonder of the novels. Not in the least, the incredibly funny and weird footnotes that litter his books always manage to make me smile. And think. All of his writing tends to do that. 

I have been curating my own Discworld series library ever since. As of this year, I finally collected all 41 books in the series in various editions, large and small. More than a few paperbacks with the signature and frankly legendary Josh Kirby and Paul Kidby covers, a decent amount of whatever edition I could find for a good price and even two first edition hardcovers I picked up in London. This chaotically beautiful array on my bookshelf is one of my most prized possessions and I wouldnโ€™t want it any other way. It signifies my love of the words, in any form I could get my hands on. My only regret is that I never made it to one of the book signings Terry loved to do and as such donโ€™t have a signed copy in my possession. No matter, his words are all I need. Fortunately for me, Discworld wasnโ€™t the only thing he wrote, so I still have many more โ€˜newโ€™ Pratchett books to look forward to. One day, I will make the space to dedicate an entire book case to his works, when my collection of his words nears completion. 

A collage I made out of Paul Kidby cover art images.

Another thing I absolutely adore about his work is how I can read and re-read them until the end of time. Because of the many layers to his writing and the endless references he incorporates in his stories, I will always find a new way to enjoy the books. Having read them through various stages of life, having accumulated new factoids, knowledge and life experience myself, I will always discover something new. Even within the Discworld series, which I have gone through at least five times in its entirety now, I still discover new foreshadowing and references I missed in my last reads. 

I also love how thereโ€™s so many ways to read them. You donโ€™t HAVE to read them all in chronological order. (In fact, there might not even BE an exact chronological way to read them since novel 26 Thief of Time and 29 Night Watch happen concurrently, but thatโ€™s another story.) You can just as easily enjoy any of the books in their own right or choose to read the sub-series that strikes your fancy. (Pick your poison: Witches or Wizards? Industrial revolution or murder mystery?) But donโ€™t let the subject matter of those fool you. I used to think I wasnโ€™t that much of a City Watch sub-series fan, but in the meantime I have grown to love them just as much as the rest of the books. I even went as far as to name a pet for one of the characters in that series. Meet the honourable Captain Carrot Ironfoundersson of the City Watch, a lovable ginger giant!

Not sure where to start? Send me a message, I will be MORE than happy to try and find the right Terry Pratchett/Discworld book for you. Or check out the quiz & sub-series via the Discworld Emporium. (Downsideup can not be held responsible for possible addiction and/or loss of money after clicking said link. Also, I am in no way affiliated with the Emporium, but would gladly be if they’d have me. You can pay me in books & merch! ๐Ÿ˜‚)

In short, the Discworld novels have changed the way I view the world in more ways than one. They made me learn how to question the world and my place in it. They taught me women donโ€™t need princes on white horses to save them and can stand for something in their own right. And in smaller ways, I will never see a Grim Reaper and be scared. I will never look at an Orangutan again without thinking of the Librarian Ape who is smarter than all the bumbling Wizards combined. I fill my own world and space with as many things as I can that remind me of the series, as you can see by the pictures added into this blog.

Reading the last book broke my heart in more ways than I can describe here without writing some serious spoilers. Suffice it to say, a lot had to do with the untimely demise of the author himself at age 66, from a rare form of early onset Alzheimer’s disease which he nicknamed โ€˜the embuggeranceโ€™. I always saw it as one of the great injustices of the world, having to lose such a great mind to such an awful debilitating disease attacking that beautiful mind full of fantasy and wonder. (Not to mention it hit a little close to home too, having lost a few people to that and similar diseases. My great uncle for instance, who actually looked strikingly similar to Pratchett, had suffered the same fate.)

An even bigger injustice perhaps, is that it is still taboo and even illegal in many places in the world, to choose your own ending when a disastrous disease like this one strikes. Pratchett stood on the frontlines of bringing the inhumanity of the illegality in the UK to light. Before his death he talked at length about euthanasia and assisted suicide and even made the touching documentary โ€˜Choosing to dieโ€™. Having been witness to more than a few people withering away to mere shadows of themselves because of the taboo that still rests on the subject, I feel very fortunate to live in a country that at least gives me a legal option to choose for myself.

I donโ€™t even think I came close to doing Terry Pratchett justice with this ode. I havenโ€™t even told you how he forged his own sword when he was knighted. Or how he had his hard-disc run over by a steamroller. Or how he’s the father of an amazing daughter who’s also a writer in her own right and made one of the most beautiful indie video games I’ve ever played. (She deserves her own ode, I am sure!)

The world is a better place for having had a man like Terry Pratchett grace it with his presence, intelligence, humour and combative egalitarianism. He was as Purple as can be. (You might even say he is beyond Purple into Octarine, aka the Colour of Magic.) The world is a sadder and darker place for having lost him.

But in his own words, as I quoted him at my own fathers funeral

No one is finally dead until the ripples they cause in the world die away,
until the clock wound up winds down,
until the wine she made has finished its ferment,
until the crop they planted is harvested.
The span of someoneโ€™s life is only the core of their actual existence.

Do you not know that a man is not dead while his name is still spoken? Speak his name.

TERRY PRATCHETT

A lovesong to Brakrock 2023 | Part 3: The Purple People of Brakrock (Day 2)

Ready for part three in my love song to the Brakrock festival? It is all about the Purple People I met on my second day on festival grounds.

Before going into this festival, I hatched the plan to bring my rainbow pillow (see: Punk in Drublic where I had it signed by Spike of Me First & Fat Mike of NOFX) and have it signed by everyone I met at Brakrock because of the music. Fan, band, merch people, organiser, it didn’t matter. Everyone is part of the music. Midway through day one, I realised I would have to get a second pillow for day two. Thatโ€™s how many amazing people I met. I connected with some of them, but not with all. So if you see yourself here and weโ€™re not friends on any sort of social, hit me up!

Meet the Purple People of Saturday, August 5th 2023.

On day two I chose to use my press-privileges to get in through the crew exit and walk the grounds before the doors were actually open. This meant I had some time to kill before the bands started, so I decided to venture to the Merch village to get some much anticipated Toy Dolls merch. 

Author sidenote: I had already spent too much money on band merch since March, so I had made a promise to myself I would only buy one thing. Seeing as how the Toy Dolls are one of my favourite bands and the one I had missed so many times already, I decided they were the chosen ones. I kept my promise on day one (mostly because I was too frantically running from one stage to another to even find the merch village) and then spectacularly failed to keep my promise at the start of day two. 

I got a little sidetracked from my Toy Dolls-merch-mission when I spotted this poster!

1: If you read my ode(s) to The Black Flamingo and all its Purple People, you already met my friend Jo and his venue The Black Flamingo. Jo has a fridge full of stickers and a week earlier he was going over them with me, pointing to the Bearded Punk Records one and told me to check them out.
2: Braca is a band of very Purple brothers who make AMAZING music and who also hang out at that same The Black Flamingo a lot. 

Meet the first Purple People of the day! The combination of my enthusiasm, sleep deprivation & and my inability to do too many things at once made me either forget to ask for, write down and/or remember their names. (Trying to A: talk to people, B: write down the stories, C: get the signature and D: get the selfie and E: try and also see the music was a little too much all at once to ask of my neurodivergent self it seems.) Thereโ€™s too many names on my pillow to extrapolate the info from there, but thanks to Jo I know the person with the Bad Religion shirt is the bassist for Bram Desimpelaere & The High Hopes (possibly Koen) and the other one is Mr Bearded Punk Records who also plays bass for For I Am. (This is where I bought a Bearded Punk records top & failed to keep to my ‘one merch thing’ promise the first time.)

I have yet to discover both bands, though I have plans to see BS & THH in Herentals in September (see flyer). I missed seeing For I Am who played at Brakrock because I got sidetracked from my meticulous planning, which I will explain in a later post. But Iโ€™m sure Iโ€™ll run into them again on my synchronicitous musical path, one way or another. 

This beautiful human being is Koen(raad), the Belgian superfan who was manning the Toy Dolls merch booth. His story is one I connected with a LOT as Polexia the band-aid/journalist, and he is the deepest shade of Purple. He has been a huge fan of The Toy Dolls since he first saw them in 1980. In 1993 he started following them everywhere on tour, just him and his motorbike. He stars in the biography The Toy Dolls: From Fulwell to Fukuoka as โ€˜the crazy fanโ€™. Heโ€™s been doing their merch everywhere they go since 2004 and has been good friends with the band for ages. He considers them family and added that he sees them more than his actual family. 

Note to bands reading this: apparently a Belgian is great to have as a merch person since they usually know a bunch of languages! I am a multilingual Belgian (Dutch, English, French with a decent understanding of German & Spanish and notions of Italian!) with a GREAT LOVE for music who is trustworthy and who is looking for a new path in life, preferably one that involves music. Just an FYI! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Koen(raad) was SUPER nice, really interested in my story/blog and tried his best to get me my much hoped for selfie with the band. Alas, it was not meant to be, but I am still hopeful that one day I get to meet The Toy Dolls and loudly shout my admiration at them! Much later in the day, he did point me in the direction of this guy though:

This is Carlo, who is not so much a roadie as someone who does ‘just about anything’ (his words) for The Toys Dolls. He’s also been with them on tour for 32 years. He was super busy doing ‘just about everything’ for the band, so we didn’t have much time to talk. BUT! He made the time to take my rainbow pillow backstage and got it signed by TWO of the Three dolls. The only name I could make out was Tom โ€˜Tommy Gooberโ€™ Blyth, which was pretty sweet since I had loved seeing him with Me First in 2017. So I’m not sure if the other one was Olga or Duncan, but either way I am pretty stoked The Toy Dolls are a part of the rainbow pillow legacy!

This lovely person handled the lost and found. Our friend had lost his phone front stage during Me First and the Gimme Gimmes. Scouring the festival grounds at the end of day one didnโ€™t prove to be very successful, so we hit up the lost and found on day two and LO AND BEHOLD, they had the phone. Another testament to what a GREAT festival Brakrock is, full of the Purple-est of people. Standing front stage, I saw a lot of wallets & phones pass to the front. People there are so nice and purple at Brakrock, their immediate instinct when finding stuff is to try and return it to the owners, instead of pocketing it for themselves. Faith in humanity restored! 

I got distracted by something SHINY going on at the Wood Stage next door, so I didnโ€™t note down their name, but I am still very thankful they believed us when we couldnโ€™t prove beyond a doubt it was our friend’s phone. (We could no longer call it, since he had already blocked his sim, but we were sure it was his because of the background and the missed calls from the night before.)

These are the merch people, friends and lovers of the something SHINY on the Wood Stage. I will go into detail about the actual band, but suffice it to say The Lucky Trolls were SO great, I ran from the Wood stage back to the Merch Village to try and catch up with them for a selfie and YELL at them how great they were.

This is where I sinned against my promise of the โ€˜one merch itemโ€™ the second time, but I will forever treasure my lucky sweater! Had a nice chat with them, assuring them I knew they werenโ€™t IN the band but they were also important to my story about the music and that I most definitely wanted their signature on the pillow and picture for the blog. 

This is my shirt-twin Sven, half Belgian, half Dutch but full of good taste in music and bandshirts! Amyl & The Sniffers YAS! โค

At this point in the day, I was SO overstimulated from all the AMAZING music, people and experiences, I forgot to take pictures or ask names and itโ€™s becoming much more of a blur to piece this story together. The above picture is at the merch table for The Venomous Pinks. I think my smile here makes it abundantly clear what I thought of that band, though I plan to use many words to explain in detail later. This is the third and last time I would break my own promise about the merch. I regret NOTHING!

Front stage waiting for The Venomous Pinks, I met Boris, a Frenchie who had their own two bands, one was called โ€˜Storiesโ€ฆโ€™ and the other โ€˜Rocking Bitchโ€™. (I would link them, but I sadly canโ€™t seem to find them on the net.) He came up to ask me what I was writing down because he had spotted me a day earlier writing industriously during both Public Serpents & Good Riddance. Sadly, I lost him to the crowd before connecting and getting the picture, but if you are reading this and know Boris who is French & has two bands and a ginger beard, connect with me! 

A little while later I sat across from this person at the Jen Razavi set and I just had to get a picture because they were also front row rocking out to The Venomous Pink. Again, I was way too overstimulated to connect properly, but I feel we should be friends, so find me! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Before that very same Jen Razavi set I also met with Paul, aka Zombie Teeth. Paul is a talented photographer from the UK, whose pictures I will use to liven up some of my band write ups (YES, I am ALMOST ready to talk about the actual bands and music at Brakrock!).

Not only that, but heโ€™s also a great graphic designer and did some artwork for The Venomous Pinks, Bad Cop / Bad Cop AND heโ€™s on the Bassists Against Racists team. That last one is a Non-Profit who release cool shirt designs featuring a specific bassist each month and donate the proceeds to charity. Fuck yea, if that isnโ€™t purple, I donโ€™t even know what is. We didnโ€™t get a pic, but Iโ€™m pretty sure our paths will cross in the future and Iโ€™ll rectify the situation then! Meanwhile, check out his amazing artwork.

Last, but most certainly not least! Zoรซ, the youngest rock chick of the festival and biggest fan of Jen Razavi! She will definitely make another appearance in the blog about that amazing set. 

THANKS SO MUCH to all the amazing people I met, talked to and admired from afar. You helped make this experience so memorable I will probably keep annoying people with stories from that one festival in 2023 for YEARS to come!

In the next part I will (finally) follow some of the Purple People towards the music! โค

Brakrock – Kasteel ter Elst – Duffel – August 4th & 5th 2023

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