Seaside musings, a coastal diary series. (Part THREE โ€“ Scene SIX)

My trip into the Flanders Fields left me feeling dejected. Even though it had been a nice day out, both in a trip and weather sense, I felt the weight of death on my shoulders. The deaths of all those soldiers, fighting a war others waged for them. Seeing those graves in Steenkerke with all those young boysโ€™ names and the memorial in Ramskapelle got me in a gloomy mood. And of course, closer to home and heart, all the memories of my dad dredged up by those two places left me feeling disconsolate.ย 

While catching my breath on the terrace, I see this beautiful rainbow in the sky. Aside from the music, the number three and feathers, thereโ€™d been a lot of synchronicitous rainbows this year too.

I take it as a sign for me to venture out again, clearing my head of the contemplative cobwebs. Another sunset stroll on the beach it is. This time I walk away from Nieuwpoort beach, in the direction of the Ter Yde Dunes nature reserve in Oostduinkerke. 

It starts off as another magical walk, reminiscing on the beautiful musical rainbows. I have yet to regale you with the tale of meeting the beautiful ultra-purple person that is Joey Henry, whom I met somewhere at the start of August. I havenโ€™t had the time to find the right words to describe the two nights I spent with him and his music. They will roll out in due time.

Letโ€™s just say that aside from being an immensely talented musician, heโ€™s also a phenomenal photographer. I snagged one of his prints, Kansas rainbow included, at the first of his shows I saw at Den Oude Ketel. (Yes, the very same spot where I saw that other impossible rainbow months earlier, after that magical James Hunnicutt set.)

Kansas Rainbow print by Joey Henry

All this to say, I had rainbows, music and photography on my mind. So I channel my inner puddle & cloud photographer as I set off along the empty shoreline, singing loudly.

I see the bunker and walk back up the beach and climb to the crest of the dunes. I sit and rest, taking in the amazing sight of the sunset from my vantage point. 

I decide to walk back before I lose the light completely. I put in my earbuds and start my playlist at random when of course, none other than โ€˜In the Mirrorโ€™ by The Interrupters starts playing. The song that started off this series, and the one I was singing just moments earlier.

I wander further along the waves, howling along to Raised by Wolves. This is so cathartic I decide to delve deeper into the melancholy.

James Hunnicutt live at The Black Flamingo (With Fritz and the Reverend from Whiskey Dick)

I start off with โ€˜Donโ€™t let teardrops fill your eyesโ€™ by James Hunnicutt and of course, teardrops start filling my eyes, like this song invariably seems to do.ย I send him a text scolding him for this awfully amazing song and thanking him profoundly for what it keeps doing to me. ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

It leads me to the playlist we played at my dadโ€™s funeral starting with โ€˜De Grote Voyageโ€™ by Willem Vermandere, whose house I just sat in front of earlier that day.

Iโ€™m sobbing and laughing, feeling everything all at once. A beautiful mess of BIG emotions. I scream the lyrics into the void of the sea. I walk on with โ€˜Weโ€™ll meet againโ€™ by Johnny Cash in my ears. It feels like my father is looking on and saying to me, though Johnnyโ€™s baritone timbre:

“Keep smiling through
Just like you always do
‘Til the blue skies chase those dark clouds far away”

We’ll Meet Again – Johnny Cash

So I walk on. With a smile on my face. Deciding to go for some fries at a snackbar with a cute dog in their logo.The nice purple people saw I was taking a pic and invited the critter himself over.

The dog is named Gaspard, and he reminded me (in more ways than one) of Gaspode from Discworld, only one of my favourite characters in the series. I mean. Talk about everything being connected. (In MY mind at least. Itโ€™s a special place inside my skull, I like it here, even though it is always just a little on fire.)

He starts cuddling up to me and I am sobbing while smiling again. One of the last conversations I remember having with my dad, is about cuddling up to a dog and the horse Iyota from hippo-therapy and telling him how happy it had made me. And him reponding thoughtfully ‘They know, you know, they sense it’ even though I never truly told him how dark the thoughts beforehand had been. I love you, Gaspard people and especially you my little doggo friend! (Great fries too!)

After another doggie selfie, this time with the Nieuwpoort Saint-Bernard, who fills me with SO MANY youthful family memories again, it is time to go back home.

I fall asleep like a log and wake up in the middle of the night. I go onto the balcony for another breath of fresh air and drink in the silence. And just as I think to myself โ€˜All is quiet on the Western Frontโ€™, I see a fisher boat with a huge flock of LOUD seagulls in tow.

I see you dad, I hear you. Good night.ย 


PS: The title of this blog refers to yet another song. About death. Suprise. It didn’t fit in with the rest of the sentiment of this post so I added it here, as an aside. I’d say ‘enjoy’, but it is definitely not that type of song. It is pretty damn haunting.

Seaside musings, a coastal diary series. (Part THREE โ€“ Scene FIVE)

Every time we came on a family trip to the coast, there was one specific trip inland. A visit to the city of Veurne and/or walking through the sleepy fields of Oeren nearby. A walk to the MiniPri where we got to pick out ONE TOY. It was a HUGE toy store in my memory, but turns out to be a store with one toy aisle. (Time has stood still there, they still sell Britney Spears & Eminem posters from the early nillies. Itโ€™s a little weird, but comforting nonetheless.)

So my search for treasured memories drives me inland today, to the quiet town of Steenkerke in that same region.

When I was old enough to go to the coast myself, my dad gave me the same advice every time: โ€˜Jul, you have to go to Steenkerkeโ€™. And then when I was there, a message: โ€˜Jul, have you been to Steenkerke?โ€™. It had everything to do with his love for music and art, which combined itself in the Flemish artist Willem Vermandere. A philosopher, poet, writer, etcher, painter, sculptor and a singer-songwriter with an impressive oeuvre.

Two years ago, I finally listened and fell deeply in love with the artist whoโ€™d Iโ€™d only heard of in passing before. I read (and immediately bought) his book Als โ€˜t maar Geestig is and set off to discover his hometown Steenkerke.

On the way to and from there, I was entranced by his music that fit so well with the scenery of the Flanders Fields. Some of it light-hearted, but some deeply rooted in the horrible happenings in those fields, like the album Altijd iemands vader, altijd iemands kind (Always someone’s father, always someone’s child). It’s a true masterpiece of musical storytelling.

In Steenkerke, like in so many places around West-Flanders, thereโ€™s a military graveyard from the first World War, with graves of too many young men who lost their lives in a cruel and useless war. (Like there is any other kind.) This visit in 2021, combined with my journey to Ypres, where I was moved to tears by the daily tribute of The Last post at the Menin gate, inspired me to make my own piece of protest-art.

Within this collage I sprinkled in some music which reminds me of the wars of my lifetime. The ones fought in Iraq and Afghanistan, after 9/11 happened, which in turn made me VERY conscious of world politics. The skull is made up of the lyrics to the heartwrenching song Hero of War by Rise Against and I added in the title of Let them Eat War by Bad Religion. 

It was reading Willem Vermandereโ€™s book that drove me to enrol in the Art Academy, where I found joy in creating again after a very long hiatus. This was the first piece I made after some dark years where I lost my passion for creation. In a way, Vermandere was the instigator for the Clumsy Crane Studio Instagram that now also includes my great love of writing. The music has ALWAYS been a common thread on the page, all my own favourite pieces of art were inspired by or named for songs.

Back to Steenkerke. My plan for today was to spend an afternoon on the terrace of his favourite pub, one he wrote this song about. (It was the place where I bought the book and enjoyed a nice local beer on the last my last visit, as pictured above.) Alas, this being after the high season, the cafรฉ was closed for a yearly holiday. I saw my plans for writing with the church in back of me, his house in front of me and his spirit near me fade away. But then I find this spot in the grass and decide to start writing there, overlooking the polder. 

The sound of nature takes over and I realise this is the better option. Writing with a bunch of bike tourists surrounding me would have been another experience indeed. All I hear now is the wind gently caressing the leaves of the trees and about ten different species of bird tweeting merrily away. Somewhere in the distance I hear some church bells jingling a joyful tune. Around me thereโ€™s the fluttering of butterflies, ladybugs and other summery critters enjoying the last rays of sun. 

In this sleepy silent town I seem to be completely on my own. Alone, but not lonely. I am surrounded by memories and profoundly content with my own company. Feeling that artful soul across the street brings some extra oxygen. As if a cosmic connection is supporting me while writing. I lie back and stare at the clouds and drink it all in. 

There’s the tiny church behind me, filled with some of his beautiful works of art. He wrote the following song about it. My favourite lyric is this:

O ik wil het al nog geiren geloven,
dat mirakel van die zes kruiken wijn
en van Lazarus die al drie dagen dood was,
were levend, meer moet dat nie zijn.

Dat is ‘t werk van zangers en dichters,
als ‘t maar rijmt, is ‘t een fluitje van ne cent,
dat Jezus zijn moeder nog maagd was,
is dat geen geestig vertellement!

Roughly translated that goes:

Oh, I want to gladly believe it all
The miracle of those six jugs of wine
And of Lazarus who’d been dead for three days
Alive again, that’s all it takes.

That’s the work of singers and poets,
If it just rhymes, it’s a piece of cake,
That Jesus’ mother was still a virgin,
Isn’t that a droll tale

After I’m done writing, I step into the church to wander past Vermandereโ€™s paintings, etches and sculptures again. I refrain from putting his music on because the Gregorian church music, which I kind of really despise and always have, reminds me of my father again. I take my sweet time looking at every piece in detail and marvel at the imagery and colours. 

The beauty and intricacy of the works doesn’t really translate into pictures.  I get especially transfixed by this one, drinking in every brushstroke and bit of shading in these striking colours with hungry (and quite frankly a little jealous) eyes.

In trying to research what this piece is called (no luck yet), I just found out this piece I saw on my first night in Nieuwpoort. It was made in remembrance of the Great War and is called Verzoening or Atonement. It is placed on the geographical starting point of the Western Front right near the pier.

I walk back out of the church, put on my hiking boots and wander off in the distance. After a while, my thirst, which I was supposed to quench at that little terrace, takes over. Nothing is open within walking distance, so I decide to drive over to Ramskapelle and I unknowingly end up at the perfect writing spot. Another place where time stood still, with a slightly camp but lovely decorated terrace and some beautiful inspiring wall art. 

A chill and very 80s soundtrack in the background, a very LOUD but soothing conversation between two local ladies in that lovely West-Flanders dialect and some nice regional beers on the menu. The air feels warm, and smells of a rain shower that never happens. What else could a person want? Fate drove me here. I start writing. Crocodile Rock jumps on in the background. I smile and think of Joey Clyde

Before going home I honour my farmer family roots by making friends with a sheep and admiring some farming equipment. Dad would have been proud of me today.

Rounding off the Edges

A project and post in progress

The drawing series ‘Rounding off the Edges’ is a work in progress, much like this post. I am still filled with ideas on where to take this, but I figured I should already give an overview of the process for prosperity. Waiting until I decide it is done (it might never be) or even when the hyperfixation ends (if it does, it wonโ€™t get posted here anyway) is never the best strategy, so here goes.

Editors note: I am planning on photographing all drawings in the series and add them into their own gallery chronologically and then add to it as it evolves. That in itself might prove a huge project so in the meantime, I’ll show you a few not-so-great shots from my phone I made while drawing. Note that not all drawings are 100% finished, some still need some detail work.

It all started one sunny afternoon while browsing Instagram. My friend sent me this video and I was immediately triggered. Seemed like a chill way to spend an afternoon doodling. Found some paper, markers and set to work.

I started off exactly as the video suggests. Just drawing random intersecting lines on paper and rounding off all the corners where they meet. Started with black marker and pens and did a few versions like that.  

After that, my ADHD brain excitedly started screaming all sorts of ideas at me on what I could do next.
What if I used my colour markers? (My mind always goes to ALL THE COLOUR!)

Not happy with how the colour versions turned out, but maybe if I can find the right markers that resemble the standard acrylic black markers I used for the black & white ones, it can be done. I have however already spent a small fortune on said black pens, so Iโ€™m tabling the idea for now and going with black and white.

Rounding off the Edges - first drafts
Rounding off the Edges – first drafts

Then: What if I used symbols like the ampersand or anarchy sign? What if the lines themselves weren’t rounded? What if I used intersecting circles? What if I use letters and WHAT IF those letters were words?

What if I define a specific shape (hexagon) in which the lines are contained on the paper? Which letter(combinations) and words get the best results stylistically?

What if the words were short sentences? What if I used the words to a short-ish poem? What if I designed unbidden cover art for my band friends The Rabids? What if I use lyrics? What if I don’t just write down the words and have them intersect, but actually put some thought in placement before the rounding?

  • Rounding off the Edges -Rounding the edges of Anarchy - Number 13 in the series
  • Rounding off the Edges - jagged line testing
  • Rounding off the Edges - Everything moves in circles - Number 8 in the series
  • Rounding off the Edges - Everything moves in circles - Number 8 in the series
  • Rounding off the Edges - Hex boundaries test - Number 16 in the series
  • Rounding off the Edges - H is for Hilary - Number 12 in the series
  • Rounding off the Edges - Hyperfocus - Number 18 in the series
  • Rounding off the Edges - Rounding the edges of Anarchy pt. 2 - Number 32 in the series

What if I draw the regular lines again, but try to find/form a creature with them and highlight that?

  • Rounding off the Edges - BlubFish - Number 30 in the series.
  • Rounding off the Edges - Pokhen - Number 29 in the series.

What happens when I digitally fiddle with the colour levels of the original artwork to bring out some sort of colour? (Yes, I can table the idea, but the colour somehow always seeps back in.)

  • Rounding off the Edges - BlubFish v2 - Based on Number 30 in the series.
  • Rounding off the Edges - The AmperSandmand (Second of the Ampersands) v2- Based on number 31 in the series.
  • Rounding off the Edges - H is for Hilary v2- Based on number 12 in the series.
  • Rounding off the Edges - first digital test
  • Rounding off the Edges - Everything moves in circles v2- Based on number 8 in the series.

About 36 drawings in: What if I go from vertically placed A4 pages, to horizontally placed A3 ones? 

  • Rounding off the Edges - Voicemail to Jill pt. 1 - Number 36 in the series.
  • Rounding off the Edges - Guided by Angels pt. 1 - Number 37 n the series.
  • Rounding off the Edges - Voicemail to Jill pt. 2 - Number 38 in the series.
  • Rounding off the Edges - Peaches - Number 39 in the series.
  • Rounding off the Edges - And then my brain happened- Number 41 in the series.

What if I used a piece of existing art and work on that one?

  • Rounding off the Edges - Forced Collaboration - Number 52 in the series.
  • Rounding off the Edges - Forced Collaboration - Number 52 in the series. Detail
  • Rounding off the Edges - Forced Collaboration - Original artwork
  • Forced Collaboration original artist - Clumsy Crane Studio

Having not even completed that last one: What if I join The Rabids while theyโ€™re recording in the studio and do a series in a series based on the songs they are recording for their EP? 

Editors note: More on that great weekend later, Iโ€™ve written a play by play for when the band releases their EP. So bookmark this page to be the first to hear all about it!

  • Rounding off the Edges - Series in a Series - The Rabids @ Riverside Studio Antwerp- Number 45 in the series
  • Rounding off the Edges - Series in a Series - Free Land- Number 46 in the series
  • Rounding off the Edges - Series in a Series -Clarity- Number 47 in the series
  • Rounding off the Edges - Series in a Series -Rocksteady Beat- Number 48 in the series
  • Rounding off the Edges - Series in a Series -Enemies Everywhere - Number 49 in the series
  • I will only annoy them a little - Series in a Series -Enemies Everywhere - Number 50 in the series

Anyway, about a month after I started, I now have some 53 drawings ‘done’. Most of them were made in a trance-like state of finding the corners and losing the big picture, which is what makesย doing these drawings so fun. I can listen to some music, podscasts, conversations or nature sounds and just zone out. I let my hand do the work and try not to think too much about what I’m doing.

It is SUPER relaxing, so much so that it might end up to be a form of fidget toy thing for me. My mind is free to listen and come up with ideas while I do the ‘menial’ work of the rounding.

My brain finally shuts up and does what it does best when not impeded by rational thought: be creative!

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